lamy2006
Member
- Nov 22, 2024
- 30
I'm constantly letting people down.
Myself, my friends, my family.
I thought I was getting better. That I had gotten better. That maybe I could be someone who provides value. Instead of this leach who just sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks.
Others are so strong, they provide something, they put up with my bullshit. They don't constantly reprimand themselves, second guess every action and then proceed to change nothing.
They don't constantly fall into the same few problems and not learn from them. I should know that even me feeling alright is temporary, but I still treat it like it isn't.
How hard is it to just not put yourself down?
I still feel that way. I'm only good at the things I'm good at because my brain is. It's not deserved. I'm not as strong as they think I am.
Myself, my friends, my family.
I thought I was getting better. That I had gotten better. That maybe I could be someone who provides value. Instead of this leach who just sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks and sucks.
Others are so strong, they provide something, they put up with my bullshit. They don't constantly reprimand themselves, second guess every action and then proceed to change nothing.
They don't constantly fall into the same few problems and not learn from them. I should know that even me feeling alright is temporary, but I still treat it like it isn't.
How hard is it to just not put yourself down?
I wrote that quote on 13/09/24.All the praise I get feels so empty. Most of it wasn't deserved, most of my success is a fluke at the end of the day and meaningless.
I still feel that way. I'm only good at the things I'm good at because my brain is. It's not deserved. I'm not as strong as they think I am.