How do you deal with feeling completely numb?

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When I became acutely suicidal just over a month ago, I was so sad that I felt like I was drugged. Like that hazy, drowsy feeling when you take a benzo, except accompanied with a sense of dread. I felt scared. I probably even wished to feel nothing. Well, now that's what I'm feeling and it's awful.
I can't cry. The only thing I enjoy right now is eating, so I'm gaining weight. I don't see the point of taking proper care of myself because I keep thinking I'm going to be dead. I'm craving drugs and alcohol just to feel something. How can I get out of this?

 

[BPD_LE]

I have no answers for you I'm afraid. But I know the feeling your talking about and I cope through binge eating and alcohol.

 

[Empty Smile]

Just like BPD just said, I have no answer for you.

I have grown accustomed to feeling numb, and I quite enjoy feeling of being numb.

 

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H

Just like BPD just said, I have no answer for you.

I have grown accustomed to feeling numb, and I quite enjoy feeling of being numb.

Hmm okay, well how did you learn to enjoy it ?

 

[Empty Smile]

H

Hmm okay, well how did you learn to enjoy it ?

I got used to being sad, down, and numb. It became easier to cope with. No matter how hard I tried to be happy, it wasn't meant for me to be.

I don't have anyone irl, so I stay to myself and on the dark side, and I have my inner demons to keep me company.

 

[sammii]

I've always coped with drugs, alcohol and self harm but those aren't good ways to deal with it. Sorry I don't have a helpful answer for you

 

[Stan]

The numbness i am actually ok with. It's when a situation arises that invokes an emotion out of the blue that messes with me. I suppose in response to your question, I have heard people say 'do something different to what you normally do in a day'. Feels like a platitude but there is some merit to the statement I guess

 

[justanotherday]

When I became acutely suicidal just over a month ago, I was so sad that I felt like I was drugged. Like that hazy, drowsy feeling when you take a benzo, except accompanied with a sense of dread. I felt scared. I probably even wished to feel nothing. Well, now that's what I'm feeling and it's awful.
I can't cry. The only thing I enjoy right now is eating, so I'm gaining weight. I don't see the point of taking proper care of myself because I keep thinking I'm going to be dead. I'm craving drugs and alcohol just to feel something. How can I get out of this?

I am going through the same thing and have no answer.

 

[justanotherday]

L Dopa.

Does it help anxiety?

 

[Mr2005]

People say they feel numb but actually emotions are high here. Numb to happiness maybe but extremely sensitive. There's a strong element of denial going on. I think we want to feel numb because it's preferable to never ending misery. Isn't that what alcohol and drugs are all about? Sometimes I forget to take my medication and my emotions are all over the place but it's kind of nice to be able to cry for once

 

[Sadwind]

I have transient emotions so I can only feel something fleeting before it goes away. I either feel numbness or anxiety. Its excruciating. I want to feel my feelings so bad but its so hard to find them. I like to stimulate myself into feeling. Lately poetry has really been moving me and long thinks about life and myself have been putting me in a place where I can feel.

 

[Sans]

There is nothing I can do. I usually just end up browsing the site, since it's the closest thing to support that I have.

 

[SadSack]

My numbness comes and goes, it is never a permanent state. I'm never able to get myself out of that bizzare emotionless state. It runs its course and then I go back to being an anxious and neurotic mess.

PS Drugs and alcohol did nothing for me aside from making it easier for me to make poor life choices and almost ODing(accidentally).

 

[Fragile]

Drugs, i hate feeling numb almost as much as i hate being anxious and depressed.

then pointless distractions while on drugs so at least i can feel something.
this, of course, is not a sustainable or healthy strategy, but i really have nothing else.

 

[Zer031]

When I became acutely suicidal just over a month ago, I was so sad that I felt like I was drugged. Like that hazy, drowsy feeling when you take a benzo, except accompanied with a sense of dread. I felt scared. I probably even wished to feel nothing. Well, now that's what I'm feeling and it's awful.
I can't cry. The only thing I enjoy right now is eating, so I'm gaining weight. I don't see the point of taking proper care of myself because I keep thinking I'm going to be dead. I'm craving drugs and alcohol just to feel something. How can I get out of this?

I understand you completely, I also suffer from stages of depression, in which I feel in a dark and lonely abyss and I am not even able to cry, which makes me even sadder because I don't know how to download it. From what you ask, it seems that you have the will to want to get out of it, just like me, the only thing I can tell you is that it is not forever, a person once told me that to feel better, I had to do things for that to happen, even if it's just going for a walk, that although no matter how horrible my life is, enjoy a nice day, enjoy the little things, go out, lose shame and try to meet new people, because more Beyond that life is bullshit, there are people or situations that are worthwhile, that same person also told me once: "There are still things I want to do but I don't know what things are still those" and it marked me because it's true , there are things that I want to do, that right now I can't recognize them because my day-to-day is bullshit, my past is bullshit and I think that my future may be too, but little by little, once every thousand times at least, I feel that everything slowly improves, sometimes it is unbearable, but today It is one of those good days, in which I feel able to tell you that you are not alone, beyond how your life can be, even if it is from another continent (I am from South America) I send you my support and hugs, doubt, no Everything is finished, at least not for today. You can also feel free to talk to me privately, beyond knowing each other, the feeling we have is the same, and although I do not connect very often to the page, if I enter and see a message from you because you need to say a few words or simply Talk about how your day was, I will gladly answer you, you have my best wishes.

 

[Final Escape]

When I became acutely suicidal just over a month ago, I was so sad that I felt like I was drugged. Like that hazy, drowsy feeling when you take a benzo, except accompanied with a sense of dread. I felt scared. I probably even wished to feel nothing. Well, now that's what I'm feeling and it's awful.
I can't cry. The only thing I enjoy right now is eating, so I'm gaining weight. I don't see the point of taking proper care of myself because I keep thinking I'm going to be dead. I'm craving drugs and alcohol just to feel something. How can I get out of this?

What you are experiencing might be an emotional flashback I suspect. What triggered off the suicidal ideation, do u know at all? In a emotional flashback u will feel helpless, scared, frozen, numb, dread. But flashbacks can also look like fight, flight, freeze, fawn responses. If u can look into trauma reactions it will help give understanding. Once u can identify that u are in a flashback u can learn techniques to pull yourself out faster and u can start to manage inappropriate reactions to events. They can last days, or weeks, sometimes longer. There is difference between a flashback that feels like you are in a depressive episode and actual depression. Many people get diagnosed as bipolar when the true problem might be complex trauma.

 

[BringMeToLife]

When I became acutely suicidal just over a month ago, I was so sad that I felt like I was drugged. Like that hazy, drowsy feeling when you take a benzo, except accompanied with a sense of dread. I felt scared. I probably even wished to feel nothing. Well, now that's what I'm feeling and it's awful.
I can't cry. The only thing I enjoy right now is eating, so I'm gaining weight. I don't see the point of taking proper care of myself because I keep thinking I'm going to be dead. I'm craving drugs and alcohol just to feel something. How can I get out of this?

I often feel the same way as described. To wake up from this state I mostly self harm, but it isn't healthy. A healthy way that sometimes helps me is concentrating on the muscles in my body, squeezing them(?) one by one, from head to toe and then releasing the tension when I feel ready

 

[onceinthefuturewas]

I recommend reading interesting novels. I also recommend interacting with other humans or animals.