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Goodfornothingbish

Goodfornothingbish

Planner
Jun 20, 2023
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This might be a random question, but when you are describing how you feel emotionally to yourself alone. How do you do it? Like do you describe it in words like happy, sad, etc... or something else?

I ask because whenever I try to describe my emotions to myself I can't put words onto it, but I see like a silent film about it. In my mind. Idk or I see a color like gold is perfection/nostalgic even. Greyish blue is peaceful, calm when my norm is. But when I feel something like idk alienation, or something see like faceless shadow and everything else is moving while "I" (the faceless person) stay standing. I but I can't even put the images to words or the images on pager. Idk but does that make sense?
 
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music

how many nights have i drowned here
Feb 1, 2023
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i kinda talk in english with filler 'words' which i can't quite turn into language being a jumble of noise and intent before i continue the internal conversation just knowing what i meant in the interim. i wish that i could beam my thoughts to people in that form and have them understand it because anything like this is always so reductive for me.
that is... absolutely a skill issue though. i'll find transcriptions of some of those feelings in music and it'll blow my mind because i can't for the life of me get past classics like "i am fucking FRYING right now" and "my head is full of concrete
 
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TownesVanZandt

TownesVanZandt

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Apr 5, 2025
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I have a lot of trouble noticing what emotions i'm feeling and an even harder time with putting what I feel into words. A lot of times when someone asks me how I'm feeling my answers are either bad, good or bored
 
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Izzythebelle

Izzythebelle

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Mar 8, 2025
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I have a whole host of characters lol like each of my feelings has a name and backstory and a vibe to them, I have a whole project about them living in a dorm together and when I'm trying to figure my feelings out and I'm alone I'll like, roleplay as each character and see what they have to say
 
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gnarly

gnarly

Rest in Peace
Sep 24, 2024
134
my feeling are like an infinite battle that rages in my mind. It's only chaos and destruction yet the battlefield could never be destroyed. The war represents the constant conflict I have with myself as I could never settle in being angry nor sad. And the never changing field represents the very little amount of hope I have in my mind.
 
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