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Gstreater

Gstreater

Member
Aug 10, 2024
89
I've haven't been able to find a reason to get out of bed. I have no motivation or will to live or try in life. People are always saying you'll find a reason to keep going but after I lost everything that makes me happy i can't give a damn. What gets you up in the morning? What forces you out of bed if anything?
 
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dontwakemeup

dontwakemeup

Specialist
Nov 11, 2024
395
I only get out of beds the days I have to work because I don't want to be homeless. I don't have family, so I don't have a choice. The days I don't work, I sleep all day and take sleeping pills. I barely eat and I'm always so weak. I just hope I'm finally dying. But that's how I survive my days.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
2,647
Its a struggle every morning, because at times I still see my dead girlfriend in my dreams, even three years later, dreams where she is still alive
 
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Mortiaris

Member
Mar 9, 2020
8
Only work, im poor. Plus it may be hope something would change one day. Plus im a man so i have really strong voice inside, i dont want to be useless for society, even when my work is crap and means nothink, this remainds me that i dont want to be useless for parents, when they gone i think i would be on sick note all the time
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
997
Not kidding, I have to pee. My bladder is the only thing that gets me up.
 
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yowai

yowai

Experienced
Aug 28, 2024
237
I need to feed my guinea pigs and give them water
And since two weeks I can snort a line of addy to wake up so thats nice too
 
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shrizoid

shrizoid

Student
Nov 18, 2024
126
I've haven't been able to find a reason to get out of bed. I have no motivation or will to live or try in life. People are always saying you'll find a reason to keep going but after I lost everything that makes me happy i can't give a damn. What gets you up in the morning? What forces you out of bed if anything?
Well, usually, my depression/anxiety isn't really active until a while after I get up, so there's a moment of "bliss" making it easier to do things
 
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lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
200
I only do it because I have to take care of my little shetland pony and my cats. That's it, nothing more.
If it wasn't for them, I would give up completely. But even with all this love in my heart for them, it is still extremely hard. I mean moving my fingers on this phone is hard so....
There's literally zero reason for me to live.
 
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RoyalBengalAutistic

RoyalBengalAutistic

Member
Oct 14, 2024
30
I feel like absolutely a looser every morning. It's the time of the day I get the most self destructive thoughts.
 
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cazza82

cazza82

Member
Nov 20, 2024
55
The only thing that's getting me out of bed every morning is my 6 year old but it's such a struggle
 
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Anon_Guy

Anon_Guy

2025 IS MY YEAR
Dec 29, 2024
33
Today I was in my bed up until 18h, I was looking at porn videos I already saw 100 times and doom scrolling X, just trying to keep my brain occupied, it's my mom that told me to get out of bed and go downstairs, what a life :' )
 
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LukaParrot

LukaParrot

Student
Dec 18, 2024
116
how? every day i curse... like "fuckkk... didnt die!" and i'm not joking.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
286
I don't get out of bed every morning, but when I do I usually go out for breakfast and coffee. I also have to get up at some point to take my meds or I'll feel even more miserable. Then I go back to bed, or lay on the couch if I'm feeling more energetic.
 
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eike2838

eike2838

The best time to live is when it's the last day
Dec 25, 2024
19
I haven't gotten out of bed for months. Only to go to the kitchen or take a shower from time to time because I like it. But if not, I would spend my existence here with my phone
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

The rain pours eternally.
Feb 28, 2023
1,156
I don't, I get up very late and am always extremely tired in the morning. I don't have a will to live at all, the only reason I do anything is to avoid the extreme suffering that would come otherwise.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,471
I don't unless if I'm forced to by my parents. I stay in bed for as long as I can because doing anything else is so exhausting for me
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,482
I don't....i have to do it when I am at a point where I need to clean myself etc...or i probably would stay in bed all the time.
 
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theolivanderroach

theolivanderroach

but, what ends when the symbols shatter?
Sep 20, 2024
142
I wait until I'm about to piss myself
 
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Crow_88

Crow_88

Member
Dec 30, 2024
17
Yeah, like above, its usually that I have to use the bathroom. Im barely aware of what time it is anymore.
 
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ScaredOfMachines

ScaredOfMachines

I am who I am
Nov 8, 2024
122
I honestly wouldn't bother if it wasn't for my dad waking me up every morning. I would prefer to rot there, but it isn't worth getting him worried or concerned over.
 
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finallydone

finallydone

Member
Aug 18, 2024
99
force of habit, after years of "having" to wake up early everyday it became natural for me to wake up no matter how i felt
 
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johnthefishermann

New Member
Dec 15, 2024
3
To feed my cat and use the bathroom. Apart from that I just rot away in bed.
 
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