XdragonsoulX
Vengeance Incarnate
- Apr 13, 2022
- 146
How do you think the brain changes leading up to ctb?
When I get close to attempting/wanting to attempt, I go into a severe manic state and get really delusional. After some time when i eventually just go back to my depressed side, i just feel helpless and panicky. I really thought i would try and attempt this past week but i just went to go to sleep as it just didn't feel right with different situations outside of my control kept coming up… I think the latest time I'll probably attempt would be by my birthday next year. I'll be turning 28 in about 2 months time and i don't want to continue living with this never ending feeling if something doesn't change with my personal life. That's my deadline.
When I get close to attempting/wanting to attempt, I go into a severe manic state and get really delusional. After some time when i eventually just go back to my depressed side, i just feel helpless and panicky. I really thought i would try and attempt this past week but i just went to go to sleep as it just didn't feel right with different situations outside of my control kept coming up… I think the latest time I'll probably attempt would be by my birthday next year. I'll be turning 28 in about 2 months time and i don't want to continue living with this never ending feeling if something doesn't change with my personal life. That's my deadline.