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maka

maka

this is for you, mi cuervito 𓇢𓆸
Apr 23, 2019
171
Hello all. I'm currently thinking of hanging myself at home, but the shower rod is flimsy and the one in the closet is broken. I initially thought about doing it at a hotel but saw something hear about using your bedroom door.

I'm stupid and could not find any short rope anywhere and cannot get packages delivered to my home. I ended up getting a 50 foot rope from ACE and as lowkey just gonna let the extra rope hang after tying it to the anchor, because I am also putting weights on it. I was thinking though, would wrapping the wrong over and under the entire door be a good idea, or is it not really necessary? Is my initial idea of letting the remaining rope hang alright? I already wrapped the rope around the door once to hang from obviously instead of using the doorknob, because, you guessed it, that's broken too (I live in the ghetto).

Does this sound alright so far? I attached a pic of the remaining length
 

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Ondine0000ff

Ondine0000ff

Water and Dirt
Aug 19, 2023
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Hello all. I'm currently thinking of hanging myself at home, but the shower rod is flimsy and the one in the closet is broken. I initially thought about doing it at a hotel but saw something hear about using your bedroom door.

I'm stupid and could not find any short rope anywhere and cannot get packages delivered to my home. I ended up getting a 50 foot rope from ACE and as lowkey just gonna let the extra rope hang after tying it to the anchor, because I am also putting weights on it. I was thinking though, would wrapping the wrong over and under the entire door be a good idea, or is it not really necessary? Is my initial idea of letting the remaining rope hang alright? I already wrapped the rope around the door once to hang from obviously instead of using the doorknob, because, you guessed it, that's broken too (I live in the ghetto).

Does this sound alright so far? I attached a pic of the remaining length
Just for some clarification, to what did you tie the rope? The door handle?
 
maka

maka

this is for you, mi cuervito 𓇢𓆸
Apr 23, 2019
171
Just for some clarification, to what did you tie the rope? The door handle?
I just wrapped it around the entire door. Not draping it, but actually wrapping it under and over and tightening it, if that makes sense. I was just curious if doing the entire length was necessary.
 

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kat6

kat6

a cloud of smoke trying to occupy space
Sep 25, 2024
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I know this is a serious subject, and I don't mean to be insensitive at all… But that pic of your rope setup next to a door tag that says "achieving my dreams" is pretty funny. I'm sorry if that offends you, not my intention.

Now to the serious part. I don't know about that setup, looks kind of sketchy to me, but I'm not an expert. However, due to the high risk (brain damage etc) if you get it wrong, I would wait until you're in a position to do whatever you're gonna do "safely" (you know what I mean). I've seen a few of your posts and you seem really unhappy with where you live. I've been there and it really sucked. My life got a lot better after I was able to move.. not perfect, I'm still on this site obviously but not living in my old city/ with family took away a lot of stress and the urgency to ctb... Would that be a possibility for you? Work towards moving to a better place where you can be surrounded by different people and do whatever you want however you want?
 
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sos

sos

Specialist
Jul 22, 2024
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I know this is a serious subject, and I don't mean to be insensitive at all… But that pic of your rope setup next to a door tag that says "achieving my dreams" is pretty funny. I'm sorry if that offends you, not my intention.
the door is a match made in heaven, the place to be, couldnt find a more fitting spot

anyway back on-topic

what makes you want to ctb in the first place? don't have to share the details, but whats up
 
Ondine0000ff

Ondine0000ff

Water and Dirt
Aug 19, 2023
90
I just wrapped it around the entire door. Not draping it, but actually wrapping it under and over and tightening it, if that makes sense. I was just curious if doing the entire length was necessary.
I don't know about that set up either. From my understanding, you plan to attach a weight on the opposite side of the door so it stays in place.
I guess that could work? But idk I have never anything like that before so before doing the real thing try pulling the rope with your hands to see if it stays anchored.
 
maka

maka

this is for you, mi cuervito 𓇢𓆸
Apr 23, 2019
171
I know this is a serious subject, and I don't mean to be insensitive at all… But that pic of your rope setup next to a door tag that says "achieving my dreams" is pretty funny. I'm sorry if that offends you, not my intention.

Now to the serious part. I don't know about that setup, looks kind of sketchy to me, but I'm not an expert. However, due to the high risk (brain damage etc) if you get it wrong, I would wait until you're in a position to do whatever you're gonna do "safely" (you know what I mean). I've seen a few of your posts and you seem really unhappy with where you live. I've been there and it really sucked. My life got a lot better after I was able to move.. not perfect, I'm still on this site obviously but not living in my old city/ with family took away a lot of stress and the urgency to ctb... Would that be a possibility for you? Work towards moving to a better place where you can be surrounded by different people and do whatever you want however you want?
No it's totally fine haha. Dark jokes are my specialty. I actually didn't even realize until you pointed it out but tbh I technically would be achieving my dreams so how about that 🤏🤠

I think most of my posts were from a while ago. I'd be unhappy living pretty much anywhere in America but I don't really have the money to move, and I'm too tired to keep grinding away at jobs and not being able to save up enough. That's not the reason behind me wanting to ctb though, it's mainly just loneliness.

Thank you for the laugh though, now I can never look at that sign again without cracking up lol
the door is a match made in heaven, the place to be, couldnt find a more fitting spot

anyway back on-topic

what makes you want to ctb in the first place? don't have to share the details, but whats up
Mainly just loneliness. But because of ptsd along with other issues I can't for the life of me make connections with anyone I meet to even make friends, no matter how much we get along. I've tried all of the meds and therapy and exercise that everyone suggested and it doesn't really help, so im hoping that I won't have to feel that loneliness anymore in the hypothetical afterlife.
 
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