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deadbehindtheeyes12

deadbehindtheeyes12

Member
Nov 2, 2024
52
I decided I don't want to die but scared it will take over how long have you guys lived woth this?
 
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FieldsofLavender

FieldsofLavender

how real is joy, anyway?...
Feb 7, 2023
123
I've lived with it for half of my life, though I tend to attempt regularly... It's torturous to me, but I'll probably never be free...
 
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Sheller

Sheller

Member
Mar 7, 2024
8
when I was about 6 years old, I wanted to do this things until now, I met many kind people in my life, but I could't gather their strength for myself. I want to give up.....
 
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Life_and_Death

Life_and_Death

Do what's best for you 🕯️ I'm de-stressing
Jul 1, 2020
6,935
my disorder comes with the symptom chronic suicide ideation, so probably until i die no matter how 'recovered' i am.

but theres one important thing to take from any question on this site (or in general really), every human is different. a thousand people can answer your question "im stuck with it" but that doesnt mean you will.
you shouldnt take anything much past an opinion to roll around in your head, never as gospel
 
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S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,460
More than ten years and still counting even tho I passed to action...starting attempting and not just ideation since more than 4 years now...hope to succeed
 
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Tortured_empath

Tortured_empath

Arcanist
Apr 7, 2019
477
If its for a longer time, it ebbs and flows. You can get used to many more feelings than you imagine
 
Alexei_Kirillov

Alexei_Kirillov

Waiting for my next window of opportunity
Mar 9, 2024
1,056
It's unfortunately possible to live out your entire natural lifespan with suicidal ideation.
 
enid coleslaw

enid coleslaw

That's what it means to be a slave
Dec 1, 2024
11
I decided I don't want to die but scared it will take over how long have you guys lived woth this?
Literally years. It was very recently that I learned that it's not normal to think about dying every single day. It just becomes an everyday thought
 
Opera

Opera

Member
Nov 16, 2024
64
It's been there for more than a decade, and probably will be there for the rest of my life
 
Warlord's Pulse

Warlord's Pulse

Time to end this endless war
May 27, 2024
202
Statistically, most suicidal people actually lilve to their life expectancy
Saw this one time on Lost all Hope
 
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ThisIsNotAPipe

Member
Jun 24, 2023
24
I've been wanting to kill myself for 30+ years. You can have these thoughts for the rest of your life. It's not uncommon. For myself, the right solution, which should have been obvious early on, is to just go through with these impulses and end everything. I wish you luck. I think you should try to find a therapist and try medication to see if they help [they probably won't or only marginally ameliorate the pain]. Stay strong.
 
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TodsĂĽnde

TodsĂĽnde

witnessing the battle between my body and my soul
Apr 20, 2024
33
I have these thoughts since early childhood and it's almost 20 years now. I don't think they'll be gone completely or at least I would be very surprised if they ever disappeared but I chose to live so these thoughts are just there like thinking about what I wanna eat today or anything else that I think about regularly. I'm battling intrusive thoughts and OCD and I treat my suicidal thoughts the same way I treat those. They are there but I'm not my thoughts and they don't define me or my actions.
So I kinda found my peace with them but they keep me company.
 
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niceday

niceday

And you're the voice that calls me home
Dec 7, 2024
1
These thoughts have been with me for a long time, but I was always held back by the fear of upsetting my loved ones. I am the only child in my family, and there will be no others. I have shared these thoughts with almost no one, so this will come as a complete surprise if it happens.
 
yowai

yowai

Student
Aug 28, 2024
118
I'm 24 and I wanted to die for so long I don't remember when it started, 16-17 at least and I had ideas way before but it wasn't that serious before 16
 
Monad

Monad

ᴛʜᴇ ᴠᴏɪᴅ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ’ᴛ ᴄᴀʀᴇ.
Dec 6, 2024
18
Well over a decade. It is something that just becomes normal to you. Some people live their whole lives thinking about suicide and just live their lives.

If you don't actually want to die, try some self-help. Read books, go online, do some research on how to get over suicidality. Find the root cause of what is causing these feelings and address them.
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
451
14 or so years. Everyone is different. You can go a lifetime with thoughts like these. You have to put work into being better and learning how to cope and live with it. There's no guarantee it's ever going to go away, but it is possible to survive. Look into therapy, medications, group counseling, treatment centers if you're suffering from any substance abuse issues. There are steps forward, it doesn't have to be final.
 
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