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Pg.964

Pg.964

Lifeless
Jul 27, 2023
91
I've been to various therapists for several years and have been medicated for about 2 years. I've done ketamine infusions. I've been sent to an outpatient program for group therapy. I'm just wondering if others have a similar experience of trying for years to no avail.
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,641
I wish they would still prescribe Nardil aa I think it is more effective


I hope you find relief. I see it as luck and I somewhat see the term 'recovery' as an invention. But that's not to say hope isn't a good thing or that it is possible for some,
 
Pg.964

Pg.964

Lifeless
Jul 27, 2023
91
I wish they would still prescribe Nardil aa I think it is more effective


I hope you find relief. I see it as luck and I somewhat see the term 'recovery' as an invention. But that's not to say hope isn't a good thing or that it is possible for some,
Thank you, I think my best option is a second round of ketamine therapy atm. The lithium I'm on rn is absolutely destroying me. I'm not even bipolar.
 
Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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Unfortunately, off and on for the past 11 years, but that "off and on" caveat is important. Of all that time and effort, much of it was either half-assed or out of order. It is my opinion that cognitive therapy is doomed to fail or may even be counterproductive in people whose psychology is too shame-based. I had to be convinced that I wasn't inherently defective and was capable of positive (if incremental) change before I could really get anything out of most therapeutic approaches. This required hearing the message from fellow sufferers who not only got better but had the balls to be candid about their life stories. For many, Brene Brown fits this bill. I needed John Bradshaw. Though I did not use his inner child self-help techniques, his vivid and thorough explanation for the destructive force of shame was sufficient to convince me. I then reinforced this new understanding by attending a very informal group therapy.

Medication has so far been small potatoes for me. The only lasting, tangible benefit I have received has been from meds which help me sleep - e.g. trazadone, quetiapine. Quetiapine in particular has helped in the past to diffuse anxious rumination spirals. Valium prevents them handily in the first place, but good luck getting an Rx for any appreciable length of time due to the abuse/dependence potential.
 
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suicidaleeyore

Member
Jun 30, 2023
58
10-11 years
 
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HighFlight

HighFlight

Global Mod
Jun 28, 2023
667
While I've had mental health issues since childhood, I was able to successfully compartmentalize all my emotions until April 2019, when my world exploded. Since then, I've been trying to recover. So officially, a little over 4 years.
 
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Alltheywanted

Alltheywanted

Nobody knows what I see
Mar 6, 2023
331
Half a year
 
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Pg.964

Pg.964

Lifeless
Jul 27, 2023
91
10-11 years
Wow that's how long I've had my mental health issues for. I guess I'm just at the beginning of recovery. Thank you for sharing
Unfortunately, off and on for the past 11 years, but that "off and on" caveat is important. Of all that time and effort, much of it was either half-assed or out of order. It is my opinion that cognitive therapy is doomed to fail or may even be counterproductive in people whose psychology is too shame-based. I had to be convinced that I wasn't inherently defective and was capable of positive (if incremental) change before I could really get anything out of most therapeutic approaches. This required hearing the message from fellow sufferers who not only got better but had the balls to be candid about their life stories. For many, Brene Brown fits this bill. I needed John Bradshaw. Though I did not use his inner child self-help techniques, his vivid and thorough explanation for the destructive force of shame was sufficient to convince me. I then reinforced this new understanding by attending a very informal group therapy.

Medication has so far been small potatoes for me. The only lasting, tangible benefit I have received has been from meds which help me sleep - e.g. trazadone, quetiapine. Quetiapine in particular has helped in the past to diffuse anxious rumination spirals. Valium prevents them handily in the first place, but good luck getting an Rx for any appreciable length of time due to the abuse/dependence potential.
That's really instreresting I'm struggling with sleep lately and the only medication that helps tame my breakdowns is clonazepam. I'm afraid to ask my psych for Xanax though
 
Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
Wow that's how long I've had my mental health issues for. I guess I'm just at the beginning of recovery. Thank you for sharing

That's really instreresting I'm struggling with sleep lately and the only medication that helps tame my breakdowns is clonazepam. I'm afraid to ask my psych for Xanax though
Xanax seems to be preferred by most people, but I prefer Valium having taken both. Even with a whopping dose of Xanax, I didn't really feel relief when I took it. Either way, I hope you are able to find something that helps.

For sleep, it might be worth asking about Quetiapine. Just be aware that it sticks with you for a long time. I plan for a solid 10+ hours of sleep, 12 even if I know I can get it. You do not want to take it after spending hours trying to go to sleep because the hangover can be brutal at first. Trazadone seems to be popular with prescribers because it has a lower risk profile with long-term use. Just be sure not to take it with alcohol.
 
western_heart

western_heart

trying to save ourself
May 23, 2021
628
A decade. I was misdiagnosed as bipolar in 2013 and it was incredibly damaging- all the SSRI trials, followed by antipsychotics. After ineffective group therapy (PHP/IOP) experiences in my mid 20s, I alternated between polysubstance abuse & desperately trying different psych drugs before eventually burning out and ruining my career. It I've only been taking recovery from PTSD seriously since March of this year.

I've had sleeping problems for a very long time. I've been a benzo user for much of the decade and I am slowly tapering down on my nightly etizolam dose.

Ketamine has been the main thing that helped make longer term changes. I didn't start using dissociative drugs therapeutically until 2020 and wish I'd started a lot sooner. Therapy has been very helpful in overcoming some trauma as well, but I didn't make it to the point of being able to talk about what was going on until I'd done work myself with ketamine analogs. Regardless, I wish I'd seen a trauma therapist earlier. I got some benefit out of LSD in the past (made me less afraid to try new things) but it wasn't enough on its own, and have had acid go the other way- earlier this year it made me more comfortable with attempting. At the moment I have replaced going to therapy with talking to AI. I'll probably get another therapist at some point this year.
 
Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

šŸŽµ Be all, end all šŸŽµ
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
Since I was a child in the therapy office
 
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ordaysun

Member
Jul 25, 2023
25
I've been trying for decades, and still battling. There are times where it got better, but it always gets worse again.
 
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Hollowman

Empty
Dec 14, 2021
1,392
32 years, I gave up on the idea of recovery a few years ago.
 
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busybee

busybee

Experienced
Jul 5, 2023
209
Over 15 years. Up and down, up and down.
But I am still here I guess. Just don't know if that is for the better.
 
iLikeFrogs

iLikeFrogs

Most likely dissociating
May 5, 2023
99
Since I was 'round 13 and I'm starting to accept that I might never fully recover, but I'm not giving up yet on it
 
S like suicide

S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,484
11 years of enduring all this and it seems to me that all my efforts to recover have been for naught.
 
deadtrace

deadtrace

Member
Aug 7, 2023
77
5 years now. Basically since I went to university and had some privacy and freedom. Just got tossed around between people cause of admin then dropped out of the blue before getting any support. Got 5 sessions of cbt which is apparently standard to help everyone, did nothing. Currently in limbo between services being told suicidal people are too high risk to help.....
 

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