Discussion How many of you feel lonely?

[Raichu]

I guess the biggest paradox about loneliness is that you can be with everyone and still feel lonely and on the other hand you can be alone and yet not be lonely.

In my case however, loneliness is more like the universe, ever widening and ever expanding. I really cannot figure out what exactly is wrong. True, there have been various traumatic events in my life, but I never thought everything would spiral down to absolute nothingness. I keep pushing, indulging in studies, hobbies I like and hoping for the future; but there's this abyss I can never escape. Almost as if it's staring at me. It's more like a weird alloy of nihilism and absurdism. I know nothing matters yet everything seems to matter. It's not exactly a philosophical void I am experiencing but I really don't know how to convey what I am exactly feeling. I am here with my family, they have been toxic with me I admit. But there's also this fact that they had always tried to be by my side. And no I don't blame them for anything, but its just that nothing is making sense and what I feel is a deep void of nothingness. Not hopelessness, not sadness, nor anything just nothingness!


Anyone else here that goes through something similar?

 

[Plutopolis]

Hello. While reading your words, I felt like I could understand on some level what you mean. I feel lonely all the time. I also feel isolated. I lost the friends I did have. I live away from parents. I feel alone among people. Always.

 

[Raichu]

It worsens everyday

 

[LostLily]

Always, even when with friends I can't help but feel lonely.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Hi there, I can relate to feeling empty. Like done. Like there is nothing, even with everything still around. Removed or separated, almost being in an unreality.

 

[theolivanderroach]

I don't feel lonely when I'm alone but I do when I'm around other people. Even though I have friends, I don't feel connected to them in any way. I've never felt a genuine connection with anyone ever. It makes me feel like a sociopath. I also feel a deep void of nothingness.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I still feel incredibly around my friends, especially when they're all paired up with other people and making out with each other right in front of me. It's a reminder that I've never gotten to experience romantic love and never will. If I ever somehow did and still felt lonely I guess there's nothing left for me.

 

[simonttt]

I feel lonely in the sense that I can't really talk to my friends or family about my mental health problems. They can't really help with what I face. It's weird but the more I'm at events that I enjoy like a concert, the more I dissociate and spend the whole time thinking about CTB. There s something irrationnal that's dragging me away from them, slowly but surely, and I dont' have control over it. And there's just nothing to do but observe myself sinking

 

[Seered Doom]

A lot more now than I ever had before. I'm a social hermit. Normally, I'm fine with being alone for long periods of time, but at this point, it's just painful.

 

[Raichu]

All the responses upholds a social paradox. We are not alone in feeling lonely. Apparently we are lonely together.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm fairly lucky in that I am alone maybe 98% of the time and yet, I don't suffer from loneliness much. The exception tends to be after the 2% that I'm around people. Which usually feels weird and uncomfortable to begin with. Then, as it starts to feel nice, I'm back to being alone. It's knowing what I'm missing that tends to upset things for me.

I do know what you mean about the loneliness of space. There used to be a cartoon called 'Super Ted' in the UK. In one episode, he got stranded out in space. He was just floating there in the blackness. I remember getting so upset about it. I suppose I do fear that one day I might start to feel it.

 

[kitkat9234]

I'm all alone. Except for my daughter who I only see every other weekend and school breaks like a deadbeat. All because of my mental health. I'm just an empty shell of a person. A zombie due to all these medications I'm on. I just feel numb and just want to die. I wish it were that easy. I want someone to kill me already.

 

[sorrymyfault]

I guess the biggest paradox about loneliness is that you can be with everyone and still feel lonely and on the other hand you can be alone and yet not be lonely.

In my case however, loneliness is more like the universe, ever widening and ever expanding. I really cannot figure out what exactly is wrong. True, there have been various traumatic events in my life, but I never thought everything would spiral down to absolute nothingness. I keep pushing, indulging in studies, hobbies I like and hoping for the future; but there's this abyss I can never escape. Almost as if it's staring at me. It's more like a weird alloy of nihilism and absurdism. I know nothing matters yet everything seems to matter. It's not exactly a philosophical void I am experiencing but I really don't know how to convey what I am exactly feeling. I am here with my family, they have been toxic with me I admit. But there's also this fact that they had always tried to be by my side. And no I don't blame them for anything, but its just that nothing is making sense and what I feel is a deep void of nothingness. Not hopelessness, not sadness, nor anything just nothingness!


Anyone else here that goes through something similar?

The worst part is when you are in a room full of people and feel like you are watching them, not be a part of anything going on in that room, just observing your nothingness.

I never made a connection with people, I truly don't know what's wrong with me, I CAN'T make a connection with people

 

[Pluto]

 

[Ferdinand Bardamu]

My suicidality is because of my alienation and loneliness.

 

[PumpkinLatte1]

Me! I have people in my life but often don't feel like I can open up to them on a deeper level, or like they can't relate to how I'm feeling.

 

[Silo2938]

Once i wrote this to my ex gf as break up letter "...yang nyata adalah kesendirian yang terlahir dari keterpisahan..." Loosely translation "...the true being is loneliness born from apartness..."

 

[shrizoid]

Horribly so, I feel so alone these days it's painful

 

[vitbar]

I used to feel incredibly lonely. It was a major source of the pain that I wanted to escape in death. I desperately wanted more friends and a partner. This changed in the last few months. I don't mind anymore.

 

[dumbnhappy]

It the worst when I'm around family. It feels as though none of them like me at all

 

[Opera]

I have felt lonely, especially these days. Even though I have a partner, it's long distance, and I can feel the loneliness of not being near them. In addition, I feel isolated because I don't go out much. There isn't a point to going out unless I'm shopping. I want to enjoy life while I can... but it's hard when all my friends are online.

 

[MidnightCat]

I usually feel lonely.

I don't really have a bad life other than what's in my head.

Got a wife, a house, *some* friends..

But it's pretty normal to even feel numb thanks to loneliness, like I've got a giant black hole in my chest and keeps expanding.

Hate it with all my guts.

Me! I have people in my life but often don't feel like I can open up to them on a deeper level, or like they can't relate to how I'm feeling.

Good point, never thought about that contributing to feeling lonely among people.

 

[Prism]

I do, though it's largely my own fault for isolating myself. But other people are better off without me in their lives, so it is what it is.

 

[Seered Doom]

You know, it's a contradiction that makes all too much sense. We're all lonely, even around other people, yet we're all connected on this site. I think we're all seeking a type of connection that we just cannot obtain for one reason or another

 

[LossOfPlan]

I don't think it's talked enough but the whole social media shit is making me feel so much more loneliner at times.

It's like, yes I shouldn't compare to this popular artist because it's not like they don't have their own struggles, but man, the sudden realisation that I am below average in a lot of things hits and that loneliness that feels more like a empty shell than anything makes things so much worse.

Or, seeing people celebrate a content creator or just enjoy their content makes me feel like I am truly missing something. Especially when I catch myself not knowing how to react to a lot of good things. I am kinda just like "yeah they're having fun, but I am once again an observer and still feel lonely through those lens of observing."

Which is a bit ironic considering when I do try to break that cycle of loneliness if only for a minute I just feel worse.

 

[beseechgod]

I've felt lonely almost all my life. My pursuits of connection have been largely fruitless and have lead to pain for myself and others. It feels like the avenues of hope for finding someone are getting narrower and narrower. I can't even handle having a social life or acquaintances, I just feel like I need to merge souls with someone.

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes, but a lot of it is my fault. I isolate a lot cause I cant control my emotions or anger and dont except anyone to have to put up with that so I stay away. It hurts bad seeing people have close relationships . I miss having friends

 

[moonlight gate]

i feel so lonely that it has drained all my vital essence. and it is killing me. it will be the death of me.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Yeah, going from from living with my wife and kids to being alone has been devastating. My friendships fell apart too. It's not a life worth living anymore.

 

[PhDone]

Yep. Totally alone and devastatingly heartbroken about it.