Just wondering if I'm the only one who wished I had someone trustworthy to talk to IRL about my wanting to die. Someone who wouldn't judge, wouldn't report me for "my own good" and someone who would just listen. I don't need advice or help or an intervention. It would mean the world to me though just to have someone to vent to.
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Sandra
Member
- Aug 22, 2024
- 15
I understand that. No one from my life want to hear about it and I don't blame them. It is a lot to ask and I think they are sick of my depression. I did vent to my therapist about it once or twice and it helped for a moment as they are trained to not judge, only help (they did not report me). Unfortunately it keeps coming back and I no longer have resources for help. So yes, it kinda helps, but for a moment.
I'm sorry it didn't help more for you. I feel like I have always hid my true feelings. I would never tell a therapist so that's not an option for me at all.
I believe if I had someone I could trust to tell them how I feel, it would relieve the burden somewhat. However, that is a big ask for someone to take on my pain and suffering, and expect them to deal with it by themselves.
YandereMikuMistress
you say falling victim to myself is weak, so be it
- Apr 26, 2023
- 530
Yeah that's why I don't tell loved ones as well. In a perfect world it would be someone who frankly doesn't care if you live or die so it wouldn't be a burden. A stanger with enough sociopathy they don't have empathy and don't care but not so much they want to torture you to death. Lol
HenryHenriksen_6E
Member
- Oct 19, 2024
- 77
Chance is, I might feel a little better. Thing is, I've always felt really trapped, because I can never talk about my emotions, not because I don't have people I can turn to, but because I'm really afraid of the reactions. I've had a family member, who had their sh wounds revealed, and the response wasn't too pleasant, so I've just decided to shut my mouth about these things. Tbh, I'd probably choose to die over telling people about it. Makes things less complicated.
Rust
Member
- Aug 28, 2024
- 32
Despite being a person who prefers to be left alone, this would actually mean a lot to me.
I have told friends in the past when I got the strong sense they felt the same way and, it was a relief. I think I've told a few random people in the past too and that also helped because they weren't close enough to care or feel responsibility. I haven't told anyone recently though. Sometimes I do want to although, I don't really think they could do anything to help and, it would only worry them so- it doesn't feel fair. At least we have here to vent. Honestly, I don't know where I'd be without it. Thank you Sasu. 
nothingspecial
Member
- Nov 18, 2024
- 44
It would mean the world to me. It might even save my life, if someone could just talk me through the situation.
I really really really would love this. Feeling it is going bad again atm and if I do not start talking really soon, I am going to do stupid stuff. I do have a therapist, but I just can't get the words out. Feel like I am faking it or won't be taken seriously.
Tommen Baratheon
1+1=3
- Dec 26, 2023
- 346
I actually can do that (and did) with my psychiatrist, but I only see him every 3 months. He mentioned euhanasia because of unbearable mental suffering (I'm Flemish/Belgian), but I didn't get into it at that moment.
Talking about it helps, but I always keep in mind that I have to stress out that I'm not actually planning something. I don't want to be admitted. Did that twice, no fun.
darkest
BPD will be the death of me
- Feb 2, 2024
- 23
I've had a couple of long time online friends that I could talk to about this sort of stuff but they cared a lot about me and I felt like a burden eventually to the point I fucked up my friendship with them both and told both of them to block me and get de-attached to me because I'm so stubbornly set on CTB and i miss them already... I really hope they weren't just online friends and that they could punch me in the face to get me out of my head, I hope you find peace!
Wouldn't matter. Even if they didn't react negatively, it's not like they would agree with me or have anything constructive to say. I wouldn't feel any better after venting. And after, they'll just have to live with knowing I want to die, and they can't do anything about it. You really have nothing to gain by letting people in like that, because you're effectively firebombing everything they hold sacrosanct.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 39,145
It would mean nothing because I don't wish for that, all I wish for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer again, all I wish for is to be gone, in fact it's all I've ever wished for. I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered at all, I have no interest in existing, it's all just suffering to me, I'd never wish to exist, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence which is why it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace so I can finally be free from this painful, futile existence I'd never wish for under any circumstance.
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GkQnmkEpc
the unknownest
- Nov 18, 2024
- 1
I double what FuneralCry says. Its 100% accurate. Sharing never solves the existance problem. Cant leave mind and body just by talking to someone.
Voicing this kind of thoughts feels pointless and might also cause new problems.
Voicing this kind of thoughts feels pointless and might also cause new problems.
You're so lucky you can talk to a professional at all about it and not be committed though.
cait_sith
Brain rotted, often missing word
- Apr 8, 2024
- 198
I have someone like that, friend I met in psychward. our feelings are mutual. I can talk candidly about the general wish of wanting to die, and he does the same, but I would never talk about my plans and stuff. It does make me feel better sometimes but overall it doesn't make much of a difference.
