Venting How to deal with bulimia?

[traumer]

I've been bulimic since I was 11 simply because I was a fat kid and wanted to lose weight while also eating food :D but instead I got a shit metabolism and food problem but still I lost many because I was also starving myself. I've been in therapy I've taken pills all that kind of stuff and I was clean for like a year without puking so it turned into binge eating disorder and I gained a lot of weight. Lately I feel horrible about my weight and my body so I thought maybe if I starve myself again I can lose weight again but it's so much harder than before because I don't have anything to distract me while starving myself. So now it goes like I starve myself for a day then I binge eat everything in my fridge and puke everything out. My stomach is burning like crazy and I feel like I'm going to pass out is there any ways I can do to at least feel better?

 

[TBONTB]

I've been bulimic since I was 11 simply because I was a fat kid and wanted to lose weight while also eating food :D but instead I got a shit metabolism and food problem but still I lost many because I was also starving myself. I've been in therapy I've taken pills all that kind of stuff and I was clean for like a year without puking so it turned into binge eating disorder and I gained a lot of weight. Lately I feel horrible about my weight and my body so I thought maybe if I starve myself again I can lose weight again but it's so much harder than before because I don't have anything to distract me while starving myself. So now it goes like I starve myself for a day then I binge eat everything in my fridge and puke everything out. My stomach is burning like crazy and I feel like I'm going to pass out is there any ways I can do to at least feel better?

can you go get treatment for your eating disorder? Sounds like you need tools to stop the cycle

 

[traumer]

can you go get treatment for your eating disorder? Sounds like you need tools to stop the cycle

I don't know how to I went to therapy and it did work for a while because my therapist said "if you force yourself to vomit for another period you are going to vomit your stool" and I was so scared so I stopped but I'm afraid to ask my parents about it because my father just had an important operation lately and they are so focused on that

 

[VoidButterfly]

Ultimately, the best approach is of course to stop doing it, but that's a lot easier said than done. You have to sit with the discomfort and just find techniques that help you not binge preferably but certainly not purge if you can avoid it. Distraction techniques, grounding techniques, whatever it takes. I find it helps to avoid keeping dangerous food in the house even. If you do end up binging and purging you'll probably want to make sure you're refreshing your elecrtrolytes with some kinda dhiarrhea rehydration treatment at minimum, or another more thorough electrolyte replacement solution such as tablets.

 

[sanctionedusage]

the only thing that got me to recover was reaching a state of severe discomfort and pain 24/7 directly caused by my anorexia. severe nausea (im mildly emetophobic), chills, low blood pressure, incredible nonstop headaches, abdominal pain, constant weakness, panic, and insomnia were all unbearable after about 10 months of their peak so I slowly increased my intake until I realized I just had to recover for all of that to realistically go away. If I'd used harm reduction, I probably wouldnt have reached this point for maybe another year or two nor had to go through the grueling recovery of reversing it. It was as simple as, if I wanted to keep going and keep proving myself and keep chasing a standard of superiority, I had to recover a little bit to be alive to continue that. Because as it was, the standard I was holding myself to was just turning me more pathetic and subhuman than the average fatty normie.

But bulimia is different in that there's not really any harm reduction that isn't just, not being bulimic. If you're comfortable with the worst of physical discomfort, which is likely if youre engaging in the most dangerous and fast-acting deadly behaviors (purging), I dont see what could incentivize you to recover besides actual self esteem therapy and other intensive psychological help aimed at building self compassion and self love.