How to deal with you own body?

[AutreTemps]

Hey everybody, I'm new to the site, I've been lurking around for a lot of time, learned a lot about methods eventually chosed one (sn) and now I have everything to ctb, so thx.
Anyway I was planing to do it really rally soon like next week, I just need to get my place in order and prepare my notes, as a matter of respect towards my relatives.
Because yes, here's the thing, unlike a lot of people here I have friends and family who love me, and they are the reason I'm still living.
But now that I have "decided" to leave, it's more like an issue. I'd like to make them suffer the less possible And one thing I haven't found any solution about is how to deal with my own body? I mean this will be extremely traumatic for the person who will find my dead body I'm sure (either a friend or my mother I think)

I was thinking about leaving my place and find a place where nobody would find me to end it, but I don't know if they wouldn't even prefer to be sure I'm really dead than just not knowing where I am, supposedly dead

Have somebody ever thought about that ?

 

[GeorgeEastman]

There's nowhere to go. The cadaver dogs will find you. Best bet would be to tell them all the time how much you really hate living so they expect it when it happens.

Hell, my relatives expected me to kill myself years ago. They still say they don't want me to, but I've told them so much about how I'd rather be dead that they're ready for it.

 

[AutreTemps]

GeorgeEastman

But don't you think you're making them suffer a lot saying them this all the time?
I think it's hard for them to hear that because they don't even understand for some of them

 

[Anon1337]

Go to a motel or hotel?

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

GeorgeEastman

But don't you think you're making them suffer a lot saying them this all the time?
I think it's hard for them to hear that because they don't even understand for some of them

Yes you're right people don't understand at all. They will either think you're looking for attention or that it's just 'words coming out your mouth'. It's beyond some peoples grasp unfortunately.

OP, the best place is probably at home but if you want to spare your mother or friend finding you, rather do it in a specific location where you will have at least two hours or more before being found and leave a note at home to give an indication of where you are and directing the reader to phone the police to collect your body. You can also use a delayed email service, I've seen a few people on here who have made use of something like that, or spoken of it anyway.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

But don't you think you're making them suffer a lot saying them this all the time?

Maybe, but only because they want it over with. They would get money out of it.

I thought they wanted me dead even when I was flat broke, but now that they'd get a windfall out of it I'm kind of shocked they don't just hire a damn hit man or at least try harder to push me over the edge.

It's not the lottery, but it would be a nice little two week shopping spree for them.

 

[Lara Francis]

Welcome to the forum.

 

[Lovemykids]

Yes you're right people don't understand at all. They will either think you're looking for attention or that it's just 'words coming out your mouth'. It's beyond some peoples grasp unfortunately.

OP, the best place is probably at home but if you want to spare your mother or friend finding you, rather do it in a specific location where you will have at least two hours or more before being found and leave a note at home to give an indication of where you are and directing the reader to phone the police to collect your body. You can also use a delayed email service, I've seen a few people on here who have made use of something like that, or spoken of it anyway.

I thought about delayed email sending but not sure how if anyone could shed some light

 

[ctoan]

Go to a motel or hotel?