Discussion How to tell your friends you want to spend more time with them before you leave without directly telling them your intentions?

[Minerva___]

I have 2 irl friends, one of which is a close friend I see much less than I'd like to. I've been chronically lonely my entire life and I want to at least spend my last few months socializing with them a decent amount of times. I met them a few months ago and before them I never really had anyone to meet up with (for more than 2 decades).
the close one knows I'm suicidal but I probably shouldn't admit my intentions. I plan on leaving one a note and want to start seeing them more, because I don't want to die so painfully lonely. They want to go on a many months long exchange and I'm so scared it'll actually happen and that it'll happen before I can spend a decent amount of time with them. Idk how to signal that this time we really need to start hanging out more. I also want to subtly say goodbye properly.
What do I do?

 

[Namelesa]

Saying to them that you just want to interact with them more as you don't interact with them as much as you want to and like their company should be enough of a reason to get them to spend more time with you without saying about any plans of suicide.

 

[Minerva___]

Saying to them that you just want to interact with them more as you don't interact with them as much as you want to and like their company should be enough of a reason to get them to spend more time with you without saying about any plans of suicide.

I just want them to take this seriously because they just postponed our hang out when I already miss them desperately. And I want them to know I will not handle it if they actually leave for a long time, especially if they do it soon. Because I will leave this year and most likely before autumn.

 

[_Maya]

Best way to go about it is just be casual

Saying to them that you just want to interact with them more as you don't interact with them as much as you want to and like their company should be enough of a reason to get them to spend more time with you without saying about any plans of suicide.

basically what they said

 

[Minerva___]

I have 2 irl friends, one of which is a close friend I see much less than I'd like to. I've been chronically lonely my entire life and I want to at least spend my last few months socializing with them a decent amount of times. I met them a few months ago and before them I never really had anyone to meet up with (for more than 2 decades).
the close one knows I'm suicidal but I probably shouldn't admit my intentions. I plan on leaving one a note and want to start seeing them more, because I don't want to die so painfully lonely. They want to go on a many months long exchange and I'm so scared it'll actually happen and that it'll happen before I can spend a decent amount of time with them. Idk how to signal that this time we really need to start hanging out more. I also want to subtly say goodbye properly.
What do I do?

Update the close one who is the only one of those 2 who still responds to my texts more than a few times a month just let me know they're leaving for a very long time. Fuck my entire stupid existence. My whole life has been one huge fucking unfortunate period of time. I want to bash my head against a wall until I die.