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Kornyboyo

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Aug 7, 2019
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Benzodiazipines destroyed my brain and the mental torture I still experience 9 months later doesn't look like it's going away any time soon. I don't want to "wait" years and years like people promise that it will get better.

I don't want to die but I can't live like this another second of the day. I have racing intrusive thoughts and suicidal ideation 24/7. My mind loops and loops about the same shit over and over again. I can't distract. I feel stuck in my head like one of those Black Mirror episodes.

How would you go about CBT if you had limited access to most things. Considering I am pretty much on suicide watch.
 
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Kornyboyo

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Aug 7, 2019
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Benzos have the opposite effect on me. They send me manic so phenibut would be out of the question.
 
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Egddios

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Oct 27, 2018
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Jumping comes to mind, as there's little physical prep involved. I myself am terrified of jumping BUT...I have considered it recently.

In the city where I live, a woman was shoplifting from Nordstrom and security spotted her. A chase ensued and she ran to one of the higher levels of the parking garage and jumped. At the same garage, a guy I went to high school with also jumped.
 
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Kornyboyo

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Jumping comes to mind, as there's little physical prep involved. I myself am terrified of jumping BUT...I have considered it recently.

In the city where I live, a woman was shoplifting from Nordstrom and security spotted her. A chase ensued and she ran to one of the higher levels of the parking garage and jumped. At the same garage, a guy I went to high school with also jumped.

I am also terrified of jumping. Also, there is no high places around me. I live in the countryside.
 
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