How's many times have you failed?

[Life'sA6itch]

For me it was 3, all otc. The next time must be it. Any ways you would not try again?

 

[sweetsorrow_]

Nearly 20, I stopped counting after the 15 one. I ended in the hospital two times and the other two I was just cared by my ex. The last one was on april of 2023, my ex broke up with me after that. I'm tired

 

[FuneralCry]

I haven't really as I'm so cruelly denied the option to painlessly cease existing in peace and never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again, what is so horrific to me is how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse agony, I just wish to be non-existent incapable of suffering in any way instead of in a situation of way worse torture in this existence I always saw as an abomination with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[BismarckIRL]

Nearly 20, I stopped counting after the 15 one. I ended in the hospital two times and the other two I was just cared by my ex. The last one was on april of 2023, my ex broke up with me after that. I'm tired

Not trying to be disrespectful but how? So i don't make the same mistakes..

 

[nomoredolor]

An embarrassing amount of times. Which is why I'm going for SN for my next and final attempt

Anna

 

[Boardwalk]

Only 1 serious attempt, did not know pink slips were a thing and you could actually be arrested over leaving a note.

 

[needthebus]

3

 

[heyy]

I think I tried it seriously like 5 times or smth.

But like 10 times at least for practice.
Like cutting the vein in my wrist to see how it will be if I choose it as my final method, or hanging, a bag with some gas etc.
I also tried standing on the rails waiting for the train 4 years ago... (The second time it actually came and it was so close). But I don't want to involve other people like this so I defenately wont do it this way. Still feel sorry for the person who was driving the train. But I know they're not very affected by it cuz I heard someone talking who apparently knew the driver and they just trash talked the person who was on the rails (me) and were making fun of it. I was so scared they somehow could know it was me but they didn't. Funny how I happend to stand just a few meters further next to these people a few days after that attempt.

I think my final method will be the night-night/partial hanging or a gas which prevents your body from getting enough O2 but you are still able to breath normaly without the feeling of suffocating.

<3

 

[We’reJustStrangers]

Three, all by overdosing otc medicine. This forum and other research has given me lots of peaceful ways to leave, so the fourth will definitely be the last. I just wish I knew what happens after you die. Is it like sleeping without dreaming and never waking up, does heaven and hell actually exist, or reincarnation. I hope I can sleep forever though, that'd be nice.

 

[Always Last]

Once

 

[Permanoir]

Once but 2 other times where I backed out from hanging. Going with SN this time

 

[LostLily]

Two half-asss attempts that barely counts

 

[diy-event]

I have had two serious attempts of hanging myself.

One was when I was a teenager and the other more recently

I'm each case the anchor failed to hold me. I blacked out with each attempt and found myself on the floor

3rd time will be a success.

All I need to do is book the hotel

 

[hesheitthing5387]

14. Hopefully 15 is a good number

 

[Malfunction]

Never purposely attempted. Had a few close calls.

I'm really wanting it done right the first time.

 

[neenie]

I can remember 10 attempts, the first at age 9. I talked about it to a nurse in the psych ward, she responded that because I couldn't die after so many attempts that meant I actually wanted to live. My poor 14 year-old self who didn't know any better believed her for years but now I know it's just hard to kill oneself as all the peaceful methods are heavily restricted :( I'll make a final attempt at catching the bus with SN!

 

[FireFox]

Zero attempts because I am absolutely afaird of being hospitalised or severely disabled if it goes wrong.

My family are not the kind of people who react well to things. When they found out I abuse diet pills my family just lost it completely it was emotional WW3.

When I attempt suicide in the future I am choosing a method that a high success rate and I am going far away to kill myself ie a forest so I won't be found on time.

I have had two serious attempts of hanging myself.

One was when I was a teenager and the other more recently

I'm each case the anchor failed to hold me. I blacked out with each attempt and found myself on the floor

3rd time will be a success.

All I need to do is book the hotel

@diy-event I do not understand how do people fail multiple attempts at hanging ?

Nearly 20, I stopped counting after the 15 one. I ended in the hospital two times and the other two I was just cared by my ex. The last one was on april of 2023, my ex broke up with me after that. I'm tired

@sweetsorrow_ The human body is more resilient than people realise this is why failed suicide attempts happen .The act of sucide in itself is a harmful act because a person is exposing themselves to danger and the body is built to fight against danger and prevent a person being drawn to dangerous situations.

Your body will always fight for your survival even when your mind gives up on you it is crazy.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

More than I can count, mostly during my teens, and mostly overdoses and partial attempts. This year, twice, only hospitalized for one. I think it shows off both my incompetency and the resilience of the body (mostly the former, though).

 

[Life'sA6itch]

More than I can count, mostly during my teens, and mostly overdoses and partial attempts. This year, twice, only hospitalized for one. I think it shows off both my incompetency and the resilience of the body (mostly the former, though).

I feel the same about my failures and body's resiliency

 

[Namelesa]

At least 5 times I think. Two times trying to runaway from family to get on top and jump off a tall apartment building. Once trying deodorant. Once trying night night without the appropriate items for it. Once trying to suffocate in a plastic bag.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

0 and hopefully it stays that way for when I do attempt to ctb

 

[HereWeGo!]

I would say 2 times when I really tried, but SI kicked in.

 

[:)0=]

I had only one attempt of attempt. :) I was hospitalized before planned attempt. :)

 

[sximii]

5 when I actually caused myself serious physical harm. Over 10 counting the ones when someone stopped me, or for other reasons it didn't go through. I was recovered in hospitals 5 times, one of those however was for planned attempt that didn't happen

 

[HereWeGo!]

5 when I actually caused myself serious physical harm. Over 10 counting the ones when someone stopped me, or for other reasons it didn't go through. I was recovered in hospitals 5 times, one of those however was for planned attempt that didn't happen

Sorry to hear about you suffered of incompletions that many times. I'm interested to know: Were you forced to go to psych ward after your attempts?

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I've attempted 5 times before. three as a teenager and two a few months back. Only one of those attempts ended in me having to go to the hospital. I'm really fucking stupid so most of my attempts failed pretty badl (they were all very pathetic). The only positive is that at least I haven't sustained any permanent bodily damage from them.

I do not understand how do people fail multiple attempts at hanging ?

People fail at hangings all the fucking time. It's not like you've attempted before so why are you acting surprised about this?

 

[sximii]

Sorry to hear about you suffered of incompletions that many times. I'm interested to know: Were you forced to go to psych ward after your attempts?

Yep I legally had to go. Or my parents made me (I turned 18 this summer only so I was a minor when it happened, but even as an adult it's possible to be recovered in hospital by obligatory)

 

[rachybee]

'Proper' attempts? I've failed 5 times. Partial attempts can't even count

 

[itsnigh]

Only 1 serious attempt, did not know pink slips were a thing and you could actually be arrested over leaving a note.

Hey, sorry if this is insensitive, but, you were arrested over leaving a note? I've not heard of this before. I'm sorry for everything you have been through.

 

[maniac116]

I failed twice.
Both times it was drugs & not well thought out.
I learned many important lessons!!