Venting Humans lack of "care" ¿? / another day of preserving.

[YandereMikuMistress]

I'm thinking I will, I will have to keep going, I'm pretty fucking nice huh, right, Staying for you, All of you, only for now, I'm going no way around it, im giving you the time you want, right,, so act like it, act like you've been wanting my time, show me you really care,, I know you can't, I know no matter how hard I want to believe, there's little care for anyone but yourself at the end of the day, humans can be so cruel, I guess it's in are nature because cruelty comes to us all seemingly naturally,, even the lightest versions of "cruelty"
I know because I'm apart of that group,
Kindness is merely temporary, empathy and agony are all temporary, especially when you have the choice to overlook all those things, and I don't mean personal agony none of that, no matter what your going to hurt somone, theres really no way around it, Guess it's what's part of being human,
Yea.
You don't need to take this personally or to heart, not that you would in the first place, I mean, I'm not you!,
right, right, I know everyone's got there set ways I'm aware this concept of humans lack of care is unbelievable to some, and call me fucked but that idea of already knowing there are people who won't understand that only makes my theory more concrete, in my little shit for brains head, this could make little to no sense to many people that's fine either way there's gotta be some truth to it right.. if it even makes any actual sense that is.

I feel like I'm loosing my mind without having it visibly displayed.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

My birthday was this fucking month on the 3rd and my love my life my partner starts talking to his plas on call how he stayed up all night playing games and then took the ferry in the morning over to me and you DIDNT,, but I think you genuinely believe you did,, you had a shower you sent me a photo around 8am before you had to go to work you even told me you couldn't get my birthday off so what the fuck, now after hearing me mumble "that was a special day" I'm dumb I just I let my emotions get the better of me, but you go on to say "oh my, i took the ferry that morning I took the first ferry" yea you did,, on the 4th, ask my brother if you want he was with me, or at least at the same house as me. We didn't even talk on my birthday even that night I hoped you'd call but I had to call you in the end just because I don't know I wanted to hear the one I love wish me a good birthday or wish they could have been with me, why do I care,, I shouldn't,, I grew up without celebrations and one's own birth if anything is a burden then a gift.. it's the lie that's what in the end angers me more then not seeing you on that day it's the fact your trying to convince yourself and me that you were when you weren't,, I love you either way but why because then I can't even say a thing or I am the one in the wrong,, because "what do I know" and I forgot to mention the fact you forgot my birthday you thought it was the fourth.

 

[Alpenglow]

I'm sorry you had that (multiple probably) experience. It wasn't right of them to not even call you, and they seem really inconsiderate. I'd tell you that you should bring it up, and try to talk about it, but that's really hard, and I'm not sure what you're looking for is advice, though I can also try giving it if that's what you'd like. I'm sorry I can't make you feel better, the only thing I can give you is that I'm willing to listen if you want to talk. I still haven't figured out how to make people reciprocate my care for them, so I'm afraid I'm as lost as you are in that regard…

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I'm sorry you had that (multiple probably) experience. It wasn't right of them to not even call you, and they seem really inconsiderate. I'd tell you that you should bring it up, and try to talk about it, but that's really hard, and I'm not sure what you're looking for is advice, though I can also try giving it if that's what you'd like. I'm sorry I can't make you feel better, the only thing I can give you is that I'm willing to listen if you want to talk. I still haven't figured out how to make people reciprocate my care for them, so I'm afraid I'm as lost as you are in that regard…

thank you for your kind message on my post today, I seen you in here and since I don't have allot of time i wanted to still thank you because I genuinely appreciate it,, nothing can really be fixed all that much in my situation I'm convinced but those small lines about being willing to still "listen" I appreciate that, even though I'm poor at expressing that,, I may have posted that message here and in chat but hopefully you see.