Hypothetically, where to start

[butimbleeding]

hi, I've never hung out on this side of the forum before.

I just finished school and have nothing going for me. I have no friends, no hobbies, no interest in either of those things due to depression, no job, a bad reputation where I live, no life skills that would help me move out of my parents' house to a new town, and what feels like absolutely no will to live.

I have severe self hatred, I have never hated anything or anyone as much as I hate myself, I truly believe I am a waste of space. And I have too much time on my hands during the holidays to sit and think about reasons to CTB. I was thinking I would truly do it soon.

I hope I'm not breaking any rules posting this. I just wanted to ask if anyone over here can relate to this
and/or would anyone be interested in suggesting where to start, if I wanted to try to turn this around and get better? I've tried therapy before with little success and medications don't seem to help either

thanks, I know there's no magic answer but I'm open to discussing stuff and chit chatting

 

[Lunarian]

I'm sorry, your situation sounds rough and it's definitely hard to get better. I guess the only suggestion that pops out at me is developing yourself somehow or cultivating an interest in things. Recently I've started learning how to draw and it's really painful and hard and I feel like giving up a lot but getting better very slightly makes me believe in myself a bit more (and maybe like myself). It can just be something tiny and really anything, and the results don't matter you just have to feel like you're making progress for your brain to hopefully start feeling a bit better. Just give yourself the chance to explore and be curious about things I guess. I hope you can feel better...

 

[Wezzy777]

If but finishing school you mean college, I'd recommend applying to jobs that relate to your major.

But seeing how you see no hope for you even with your degree, I'll assume the job market for your major isn't good.
So I'm that case, just apply to a bunch of fast food areas and make your availability open late hours and everyday. You'll land something within 2ish weeks or less.

Once you do thar you'll have money (who doesn't like money) and put half into savings and half to buying..whatever. New stuff go gambling.

If you keep that up with your job for awhile you'll have a decent amount of money in your savings, find s cheap studio apartment and move out. Get a new job. Maybe you'd find what you want to do from there.

That's just what I'd do if I were you. When I felt hopeless in my life I just joined the military. Kinda fun. Kinda sucks. I regret joining for the sole reason of feeling bored and fed up with life, because now I literally can't leave unless I die or go to prison. But not too bad. Met people there but I just hate everyone.

 

[moonshyne]

I'm sorry, your situation sounds rough and it's definitely hard to get better. I guess the only suggestion that pops out at me is developing yourself somehow or cultivating an interest in things. Recently I've started learning how to draw and it's really painful and hard and I feel like giving up a lot but getting better very slightly makes me believe in myself a bit more (and maybe like myself). It can just be something tiny and really anything, and the results don't matter you just have to feel like you're making progress for your brain to hopefully start feeling a bit better. Just give yourself the chance to explore and be curious about things I guess. I hope you can feel better...

i was gonna post something extremely similar to OP, every single thing said applies to me

due to my depression i have extreme burnout where anything and everything that interests me only lasts for about a week or so before it begins to bore me to death. what can i do to overcome this, or is there another recovery method i should try?

 

[butimbleeding]

If but finishing school you mean college, I'd recommend applying to jobs that relate to your major.

But seeing how you see no hope for you even with your degree, I'll assume the job market for your major isn't good.
So I'm that case, just apply to a bunch of fast food areas and make your availability open late hours and everyday. You'll land something within 2ish weeks or less.

Once you do thar you'll have money (who doesn't like money) and put half into savings and half to buying..whatever. New stuff go gambling.

If you keep that up with your job for awhile you'll have a decent amount of money in your savings, find s cheap studio apartment and move out. Get a new job. Maybe you'd find what you want to do from there.

That's just what I'd do if I were you. When I felt hopeless in my life I just joined the military. Kinda fun. Kinda sucks. I regret joining for the sole reason of feeling bored and fed up with life, because now I literally can't leave unless I die or go to prison. But not too bad. Met people there but I just hate everyone.

The job market is OK… I was in trade school for tree work and companies only hire new employees in the spring. Maybe I can get some minimum wage job until then like you suggested. I can appreciate the logical "point A to point B" energy of your comment.

Im also an addict so I'm definitely not going to go gambling lol. But yeah, maybe just get a job, move out. Find some friends somewhere in between….

I'm sorry, your situation sounds rough and it's definitely hard to get better. I guess the only suggestion that pops out at me is developing yourself somehow or cultivating an interest in things. Recently I've started learning how to draw and it's really painful and hard and I feel like giving up a lot but getting better very slightly makes me believe in myself a bit more (and maybe like myself). It can just be something tiny and really anything, and the results don't matter you just have to feel like you're making progress for your brain to hopefully start feeling a bit better. Just give yourself the chance to explore and be curious about things I guess. I hope you can feel better...

Thanks for your compassion. I'm glad you found something good for you like drawing. Maybe I will try it. Maybe I will do sudoku. When I was in the psych ward it was all I had to do and I enjoyed the feeling of getting better

 

[Wezzy777]

The job market is OK… I was in trade school for tree work and companies only hire new employees in the spring. Maybe I can get some minimum wage job until then like you suggested. I can appreciate the logical "point A to point B" energy of your comment.

Im also an addict so I'm definitely not going to go gambling lol. But yeah, maybe just get a job, move out. Find some friends somewhere in between….

Thanks for your compassion. I'm glad you found something good for you like drawing. Maybe I will try it. Maybe I will do sudoku. When I was in the psych ward it was all I had to do and I enjoyed the feeling of getting better

Oh, the spring isn't too bad. Good luck finding a job, it'll probably make it easier to find a job with the fact you have experience somewhere. Hope you find something that works out for you.