fallingleaves
Oh DARN someone's spinning out
- Nov 21, 2024
- 38
Today, not later. I'm not really prepared. But I want the pain to stop. If I'm awake, it hurts. I have to be awake to type this, so.
I can only accomplish partial hanging with the points I have in my home. As I'm sure many of you know, that's uncomfortable. Maybe I can find a nice tree off the beaten path somewhere but that would require the extraordinary feat of leaving my house.
I don't know how I can maintain like this. It hurts. It's not going to stop hurting. "Don't do it impulsively," y'all say., "You're much more likely to hurt yourself that way," y'all say. Not like I haven't been too weak to pull it off anyway.
I'd ask people to be mean to me so I have the energy to go through with it now but I'd probably end up in the fetal position crying in my empty bathtub again.
I just want it all to stop.
I can only accomplish partial hanging with the points I have in my home. As I'm sure many of you know, that's uncomfortable. Maybe I can find a nice tree off the beaten path somewhere but that would require the extraordinary feat of leaving my house.
I don't know how I can maintain like this. It hurts. It's not going to stop hurting. "Don't do it impulsively," y'all say., "You're much more likely to hurt yourself that way," y'all say. Not like I haven't been too weak to pull it off anyway.
I'd ask people to be mean to me so I have the energy to go through with it now but I'd probably end up in the fetal position crying in my empty bathtub again.
I just want it all to stop.
