
fuckthis
I've made up my mind.
- Sep 23, 2018
- 263
It has been almost 3 months since I could've enrolled into my local college to further pursue my ambitions, but since then I have either just been sleeping or using this site as a form of escapism. In my last rant, I spoke about how this site was almost an addiction to me and that I needed to slowly distance myself. But as time went on I've slowly started to realize that whatever I choose to do, I will have nothing regardless. It does not matter with what I say or do on this site, because none of you are actually here, present and infont of me. Life will move on, and you guys will dissapear. Even when I am here, I'm incredibly bored of the same old routine I have adapted too ever since I fucked up. Nothing I do will change that, and I don't even know where to begin in order to improve my current situation. Simply put, even if I am still young and 'have a chance' - what is the point with the quality of my life if we're all going to die anyways? I am fustrated with not only myself but with the way things have been moulded in society. I am fed up with everything. Just put a bullet through my skull already.