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zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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I don't know if it will work, 8 hours of fast is up. I have taken the painkiller, now in a couple of minutes I am going to take the antiemetic. In about 40 minutes I am supposed to take SN and end this hell once and for all. Let's see if it all works out
 
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PhDone

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Hope you find peace. Will be thinking of you. I'm sure lots of us here will be.
 
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zekeyaeger

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Mar 30, 2023
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Hope you find peace. Will be thinking of you. I'm sure lots of us here will be.
Thank you, I am not sure if it will all work out, it's my first attempt with SN. Let's see if it does.
Took the antiemetics. Had meto with me.
 
kat6

kat6

a cloud of smoke trying to occupy space
Sep 25, 2024
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As far as I know, everyone who has taken sn has passed unless they called for help/were found and taken to a hospital and treated quickly w meth blue.So please think carefully and make sure it's truly what you want before you go forward. This is not something you attempt in an ambivalent way, like people who take a lot of pills with a "maybe I'll wake up maybe I won't"mindset. It's a serious decision. Wishing you all the best with whatever you choose to do.
 
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athiestjoe

athiestjoe

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Sep 24, 2024
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With whatever you decide, wishing you the best. And if you don't end up going through with it there is no shame and we'll be here for you regardless.

Good luck and hope you find everything you were looking for and get whatever peace & serenity you seek.
 
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maniac116

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My own worst enemy🌹💔
Aug 10, 2024
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I hope your transition is as smooth as possible & you find peace 🌹💔
 
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DeadNotSleeping

DeadNotSleeping

Eternally Internally Screaming
Oct 7, 2024
144
Safe travels. I hope everything works out for you
 
LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

Worthless loser
Oct 16, 2024
21
I've been trying to buy SN for a while now. Wish the best for you
 
zekeyaeger

zekeyaeger

Student
Mar 30, 2023
159
Yeah, I did not go through with it. Though I take it as a step forward. I was calmer this time.
 
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Ww42

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Feb 24, 2024
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Yeah, I did not go through with it. Though I take it as a step forward. I was calmer this time.
What do u think prevented u from doing it? Whatever kept u alive is a good enough reason. Please look into why u are wanting to live and be careful
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,183
I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief from suffering you search for.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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SN, free me from this hell.


Regarding The OP title: Those are my exact thoughts many times " SN or shotgun or rifle free me from this hell".

How many people are suffering extremely? 2000 plus people kill themselves every day in this world most with brutal methods like hanging. At least 25 times more attempt suicide every day.

And nobody better tell me that life might get better. I wouldn't care if I suddenly had all the characteristics of what they say is a good life. I despise existing . Think of something that u hate more than anything then multiply it by a trillion times worse u are not even close to what to how much I despise life. And u dare tell me to accept this nightmare or that it might get better.

Non-existence forever is what I crave
 
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