I am thinking about overdose but I don't know if I actually want to die by it

[vanibless]

Idk..even when I know how much overdose can only demage your body and won't work most of the time I still think about it and I can't stop. It seems like I just want to hurt myself and I have to hide meds from me because I know what I would do impusively and I am actually scared I will do it again. I have more such thoughts like cutting my throat :// I just don't want to think about it.

(I am talking about such a nonsense overdose like antidepressants/ibuprofen with alcochol or sometimes I feel like mixing all the possible pills that I have in my cabinet)

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Please don't do this. It won't kill you, it could cause long term damage, rather than death and it will be the worst pain you could ever imagine (without death).

Sincerely, an experienced overdoser.

(I haven't used painkillers or antidepressants to OD in 10-12 years, because I finally realised it won't kill me. The pain was horrific. Luckily I haven't suffered any long term damage, but others have)

 

[vanibless]

Please don't do this. It won't kill you, it could cause long term damage, rather than death and it will be the worst pain you could ever imagine (without death).

Sincerely, an experienced overdoser.

(I haven't used painkillers or antidepressants to OD in 10-12 years, because I finally realised it won't kill me. The pain was horrific. Luckily I haven't suffered any long term damage, but others have)

I survived OD too and I know it's hell but I still obsess about doing it idk I really do wish these thoughts went away

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I survived OD too and I know it's hell but I still obsess about doing it idk I really do wish these thoughts went away

So you'll know it isn't worth trying.

It's best to try to find ways to distract yourself, even if it's for a short while. And bit by bit, the thoughts will become less intense and you'll find it easier to deal with it.

There isn't any other advice I can offer, because you know yourself that an OD on painkillers will not kill you, and you'll just end up causing yourself more problems in the long run

I hope things ease for you soon

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Hopefully these thoughts of yours don't ever come to fruition as, like you state, it won't actually kill you but rather cause you a lot of damage instead. ODing is so unreliable to where this site even considers it as a non method

 

[dontwakemeup]

Please don't do this. It won't kill you, it could cause long term damage, rather than death and it will be the worst pain you could ever imagine (without death).

Sincerely, an experienced overdoser.

(I haven't used painkillers or antidepressants to OD in 10-12 years, because I finally realised it won't kill me. The pain was horrific. Luckily I haven't suffered any long term damage, but others have)

I'm an experienced overdosed too, omg. With every OD, I actually thought I was smarter and each time believed it would work! I'll never try that again. You're lucky you don't have and damage. It seems the ones that want to die, never do.
Please don't waste your time and medication doing this! If I had known about this site years ago, it would have saved me a lot of time and effort.

If you have pills around and don't trust yourself, give them to a friend you really trust. I'm afraid you will impulsively give in and ignore our warnings.

As an experienced OD'r, nothing works.
Please don't waste your time and medication doing this! If I had known about this site years ago, it would have saved me a lot of time and effort.

If you have pills around and don't trust yourself, give them to a friend you really trust. I'm afraid you will impulsively give in and ignore our warnings.

As an experienced OD'r, nothing works.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I'm an experienced overdosed too, omg. With every OD, I actually thought I was smarter and each time believed it would work! I'll never try that again. You're lucky you don't have and damage. It seems the ones that want to die, never do.
Please don't waste your time and medication doing this! If I had known about this site years ago, it would have saved me a lot of time and effort.

If you have pills around and don't trust yourself, give them to a friend you really trust. I'm afraid you will impulsively give in and ignore our warnings.

As an experienced OD'r, nothing works.
Please don't waste your time and medication doing this! If I had known about this site years ago, it would have saved me a lot of time and effort.

If you have pills around and don't trust yourself, give them to a friend you really trust. I'm afraid you will impulsively give in and ignore our warnings.

As an experienced OD'r, nothing works.

This is so true. I was the same - with each OD, I thought I was becoming better at it - WRONG!!! Glad I'm not the only one. It was so difficult to stop, but I'm so relieved I did all those years ago, and can hopefully help others based on my own awful experiences with it.

There seems to be more and more posts about ODing on painkillers and things, quite worrying really. People should search it first, as I've commented on quite a few over the last few months or so, and in detail, to explain step by step what will happen and how horrific it'll be for them, therefore, it isn't worth attempting it.

I would recommend flushing the pills down the toilet, because OP could still ask the friend for them back, and also, I would presume giving a load of pills to a friend would ring alarm bells - it would for me anyway.

Hopefully you'll listen to us, OP! Trust us, we know exactly what we're talking about and as you can see, we're still here to tell the story. The liver can literally rejuvenate itself, and it can take a massive bashing, repeatedly! Over the course of years, so don't think it'll kill you.

Perhaps one day your luck will run out and you'll be stuck in a hospital bed with organ failure, and a hospital won't give you a transplant because of your history so you'll die in agony and that could take months or years, and there will be absolutely nothing anyone can do for you - the worst way to go. I don't mean to scare you, but it can and has happened to others out there.

 

[maniac116]

Don't waste good meds on a bad idea!!!
You could disable yourself & create even more suffering. Over 86% failure rate.

 

[vanibless]

I don't have anyone to give the pills to.I think it's a matter of time before I do it again.Thanks for your messages,I'd say it's like a cancer to my brain because I know the consequences of ODing and that it doesn't work quickly at all and when I first OD I was stressing about liver failure etc so much and to add to my fear I was vomitting blood which itself is a sign that I demaged something in my body ofc.so I know how it is but I still wanna do it bc idk I am such a impulsive person sorry