I am too slow

[needhelptodie]

I am a fuck up. I am a full on fuck up. I am too much of a fuck up. There is probably not one person alive, who has fucked up like I have. I don't know how to explain it. I don't know how to convey it. I get everything wrong. There is so much I could have done, so much I could have achieved. But when it came to people on the go, on the spot, when it comes down to 'you have to respond, right now or it's gone', I fucked it up. And on the back of fucking it up, I've unravelled. I am the ultimate domino effect human being, the last 12 years have been a living form of domino effect, only for me to fuck up to an extent that doesn't feel real. When you do things you know are the wrong way to go about something and you do it anyway because, you don't like social media? Don't like nights out? Don't know what to say to someone but sense a huge potential in someone? When it all goes completely wrong and your life has snowballed into losing everything, with no way out and the wreckage of it all? When you know you've embarrassed yourself in public across the board, in every potential direction and area to an extent that you know there's no hope of working it out into something worth living for? What can you do other than kill yourself?

 

[Halfhourdays]

You fucked up?

Prison? Jail? Street hassle? Got AIDS? What happened?

 

[FishRain3469]

Couldn't have said it better...pretty Much Exactly the same way for
me. It's Absolutely fckn Insane.... I get it and understand Completely. We're here for each other, you are Not alone. ♥

Thoughts and prayers to you always, thanks for sharing this.

 

[BeijaFlor]

I am a fuck up. I am a full on fuck up. I am too much of a fuck up. There is probably not one person alive, who has fucked up like I have. I don't know how to explain it. I don't know how to convey it. I get everything wrong. There is so much I could have done, so much I could have achieved. But when it came to people on the go, on the spot, when it comes down to 'you have to respond, right now or it's gone', I fucked it up. And on the back of fucking it up, I've unravelled. I am the ultimate domino effect human being, the last 12 years have been a living form of domino effect, only for me to fuck up to an extent that doesn't feel real. When you do things you know are the wrong way to go about something and you do it anyway because, you don't like social media? Don't like nights out? Don't know what to say to someone but sense a huge potential in someone? When it all goes completely wrong and your life has snowballed into losing everything, with no way out and the wreckage of it all? When you know you've embarrassed yourself in public across the board, in every potential direction and area to an extent that you know there's no hope of working it out into something worth living for? What can you do other than kill yourself?

well...

you can resist

because, whats happening to you is not suicide, its murder

youre bein murdered, by society, by the system

unless, you truly want to die

do you... WANT, to die?

if not...

then you are being murdered, homicide

by external circunstances...

by this hypocritial disguting fuckin world

those who "suicide" for not being able to adapt to insanity...

are not really commiting suicide...

we are seeking a dignified, humane way out, plain and simple

a last act of defiance, of autonomy, in a world that insists to strip us of such