Venting I am trying so hard to pull it together but I hate this house so much

[princeseadove]

I hate my room. It's infested with bugs and my mom wouldnt do anything about it. I am speech illiterate here so I can't get the supplies and what not myself, and I'm so tired of this house. I'm so tired of living here, I just want my own space now. I have to wait a year until I can move far far away get my own apartment, but I am so so tired. I'm so tired of cockroaches and nobody does anything. I'm so tired. I am so so tired. I don't know. And I barely have any IRL friends to help me with this and I just feel so ashamed. It's not my fault, but it happens and there's nothing I can do about it until somebody dies. I am so tired of being incompetent. I think I should kill myself.

 

[imtiredasf]

I lived with bedbugs for a bit because my parents are hoarders. It gets better, I promise.