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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
I can't believe it's been almost 10 years since 2014. It feels like yesterday. Honestly it still feels like 2018 to me. I can't believe 2018 was 5 years ago.
 
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flower_g1rl

flower_g1rl

sep 22, 2019
Oct 25, 2023
48
i cant believe it either, its all a blur. i only grew more tired in this time. wish it ended in 2018
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
i cant believe it either, its all a blur. i only grew more tired in this time. wish it ended in 2018
Same, everything has been a blur since 2018. It doesn't feel real after that. It feels like life is a fever dream, actually more like a nightmare.
 
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R_N

R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
For me everything feels like a drawn out epilogue.

I am just breathing until I stop.
 
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flower_g1rl

flower_g1rl

sep 22, 2019
Oct 25, 2023
48
Same, everything has been a blur since 2018. It doesn't feel real after that. It feels like life is a fever dream, actually more like nightmare.
i feel you, exactly the same 4 me. just one feverish nightmare.
 
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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
457
Same.

I want a time machine so I can go back.
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
Same.

I want a time machine so I can go back.
Me too. I wish I could go back 10 years and re-live my life. I hate being an adult and wish I could experience high school and college again. The world is just moving so fast and I don't feel ready for it. I wish I could have some time to catch up.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
2,813
I can't believe it's been almost 10 years since 2014. It feels like yesterday. Honestly it still feels like 2018 to me. I can't believe 2018 was 5 years ago.
Some young people like you can see how fast time flies. most don't have any idea imo. the older people most of them know 40 years passed by like a few weeks. to you 10 years feels like a day , you said 2014 felt like yesterday. I agree. . imo 40 , 80 years is no different it passes by like it seems like a few weeks . This is another Thing that is hidden and that absolutely proves life is meaningless, a scam . How can something that passes by so fast mean anything. not that it would anyway but this makes it even more meaningless. The paradox though is that if you are in extreme pain every second seems like a year extreme torture like starvation etc. really bad extreme constant pain can seem like it will never end. wow life really sux.



 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
Some young people like you can see how fast time flies. most don't have any idea imo. the older people most of them know 40 years passed by like a few weeks. to you 10 years feels like a day , you said 2014 felt like yesterday. I agree. . imo 40 , 80 years is no different it passes by like it seems like a few weeks . This is another Thing that is hidden and that absolutely proves life is meaningless, a scam . How can something that passes by so fast mean anything. not that it would anyway but this makes it even more meaningless. The paradox though is that if you are in extreme pain every second seems like a year extreme torture like starvation etc. really bad extreme constant pain can seem like it will never end. wow life really sux.

Honestly, the passage of time makes me sad. I wish I could go back 10 years and be 13 again instead of 23. I wish I could re-live my teenage years instead of having to adult. Time flew by, and it went by too fast. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back in time. I hate being an adult and living in this absurd world. I wish time could go backwards as well as forwards. I wish I could go back to the past, to a time when things were easier. Everything is meaningless in the end though, but I have so much nostalgia for the past.
 
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Black Sheep One

Black Sheep One

Member
Mar 4, 2023
80
Time is a creepy thing. I am listening to a classic rock station. The song playing is 40 years old. I was playing the song in the high school band. Since then the school has been replaced. The malls are gone. No more drive in movies. Restraunts, clubs, and streets are gone. Big box marts make all the cities alike. Parents pass away. Kids grow up. It make old family photos haunting. It seems that time changes thing not for the better.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,063
yeahhh :( 2014-2015 were the best years of my life! >_< and yet, at my next birthday, my best years will be literally half of my life ago, aaaaaaaaaaaaaa >_<
 
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hermestrimegistus

hermestrimegistus

Specialist
Sep 16, 2023
341
Graduated high school in '15. I'm permanently/mentally stuck in '19 as that was when my life really started to fall apart. Time is weird. More it passes the more I feel disillusioned
 
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Lys_C15H25N3O_d3

Lys_C15H25N3O_d3

Student
Sep 19, 2023
142
i miss 2014.. (sure things weren't a "walk in the park" . Its the "we can try again/start over/you're young" ( "young" are only those who "feel themselves" young)



Can't afford to implode/sabotage/destroy/false-flag this existance for half a decade more (easier done than said) effortlessly..
 
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MatrixPrisoner

MatrixPrisoner

Enlightened
Jul 8, 2023
1,654
This was 13 years ago:
 
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Lookoutbelow

Lookoutbelow

Jump to it
Sep 14, 2023
512
Me too. I wish I could go back 10 years and re-live my life. I hate being an adult and wish I could experience high school and college again. The world is just moving so fast and I don't feel ready for it. I wish I could have some time to catch up.
As you get older (which I am) each new memory becomes a smaller and smaller part of the totality of your life. That's why memories of younger years are so much more powerful. They were a much larger part of your life up to that point. Now every memory is just a small fragment of my life. Everything feels so insignificant because of it. In my opinion you are correct in your thinking, becoming an adult sucks. 53 years for me and most of it has been a struggle.
 
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Kundalini Guy

Kundalini Guy

FULLY RECOVERED
Mar 27, 2023
516
It's scary how fast time is, I still remember 2013/14 clearly while some kids were not even alive back then
 
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Gonnerr

Enlightened
Mar 12, 2023
1,322
That's a good news, actually for me , that means i get closer to death and deliverance.

Each days brings us closer to freedom. The only good news.
 
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NeedAnEscape

NeedAnEscape

awaiting the end
Oct 16, 2023
265
I miss those simpler days... I doubt I would have lasted this long, if I knew that I was going to experience this much turmoil.
 
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NocturnILL

NocturnILL

She will become the wind…
Sep 11, 2023
434
Don't remind me….😫 man if only I could go back.
 
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14 was the worst year ever for me but it's not like it's been that much better since but yeah, 14 was yesterday and 2018 feels like a few hrs ago. Time flies for sure
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
Yes, it feels surreal how fast life passes by without me really noticing.
I feel it most when I listen to music, I listened to a playist I made in 2005 and all the memories of that year came flooding back.
I was shocked at how almost 20 years had passed by so quickly.
It makes it all seem like a dream somehow.
 
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WAITING TO DIE

WAITING TO DIE

TORMENTED
Sep 30, 2023
1,539
Don't remind me….😫 man if only I could go back.

Do you wish you could go back because of regrets you could have avoided, or because you were happier back then ?
They say life isn't a rehearsal...I wish it was at times, because I could have avoided certain things such as trusting people who eventually betrayed me for no good reason.
 
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NocturnILL

NocturnILL

She will become the wind…
Sep 11, 2023
434
Do you wish you could go back because of regrets you could have avoided, or because you were happier back then ?
They say life isn't a rehearsal...I wish it was at times, because I could have avoided certain things such as trusting people who eventually betrayed me for no good reason.
I'm sorry for you were betrayed like that. Trust is hard as is and people don't see just how betraying that trust as d feeling that hurt can make it worse for the other person in so many ways. I hope overall you got to gain something beneficial from it 💙. I wish it was too! I definitely could've saved myself and maybe others in so many different ways.
I can say I was happier because the place I am in right now is just no hope but I wasn't happy, if that makes sense. Beyond the fact that's it's a reminder that I'm getting older and older 😂 Mainly because of regrets. I would've changed so many things I've done and how I've done them. I would've changed the company I thought were good for me and genuine friends. I would've separated from my family a lot sooner too. List goes on really but I definitely would've made some completely different life choices.
 
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sick.faery

sick.faery

Mar 18, 2021
284
sameee
that just feels surreal. how tf are we already almost in 2024
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
39,316
That really feels like such a long time ago to me, I really have been trapped in this existence for far too long.
 
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spirol

spirol

Member
Dec 19, 2022
9
feels like my life ended in 2017. the rest seems like extra time and life doesn't have my attention anymore.
 
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Life Is My Coffin

Life Is My Coffin

One final action ⚰️⚰️⚰️
Oct 13, 2023
252
I certainly wish I could live life like I did in 2017 again. Fuck I miss partying/hanging out/having friends so much. Life is so lonely now

feels like my life ended in 2017. the rest seems like extra time and life doesn't have my attention anymore.
I always just wish I died at the end of that year
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
9,015
feels like my life ended in 2017. the rest seems like extra time and life doesn't have my attention anymore.
Same, but it feels like mine ended in 2018. Nothing after 2018 feels real to me. It feels like I was meant to die then and that I'm just living on borrowed time.
 
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peace_van

peace_van

My time stops now.
Sep 9, 2023
69
My life started to get fvcked up since 2018. My best years were 2007-2009. 2014-2017 may be a lower peak.
Time passes mindlessly.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
Right there with you. Saw a Reddit post saying that the movie, Elf, had hit its 20 year anniversary, and I about died. It's as far away from now as the year 1980 was to the year 2000.

Aging Jamie Lee Curtis GIF
 
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