Venting I CAN’T do this anymore. CANNOT.

[Mooncry]

Who gives a damn about whether or not I see my dad again. Why does it fucking matter when I'm miserable all of the time and it only gets worse every single day.

I don't belong here, I don't belong there, I don't belong on this EARTH. Period. I pray to god, if there is one, that I never have the displeasure of being human ever again. I'm done being made to feel like a crazy person for seeing reason when nobody else does. Am I a "highly sensitive person," or is everybody else just completely fucking numb to the world around them?!

I'll kill my brain for refusing to serve me yet insisting that I stay alive just to breathe one more time. I'm not letting this glorified lump of fat tell me when I can and can't go. I don't want to live for no other reason than to get old. I've seen enough. I'm done. Nothing will ever change and lingering will only make things worse.

So fine. If humanity only wants to see value in people who fit perfectly into the machine, and I'll be nothing more than a waste of oxygen wherever I go, then good-fucking-riddance. I'm sorry for ever existing in the vicinity of others. MY APOLOGIES, despite the fact that I never asked to be born.

I'm so sick of this. I'll be goodbye posting on Monday night. Make this nightmare stop…

 

[ylenol]

Don't say you never want to be human again, maybe you just got unlucky ! Next cycle might make you more valuable.

 

[Mooncry]

Don't say you never want to be human again, maybe you just got unlucky ! Next cycle might make you more valuable.

No. I mean it. Believe me. Being born human is "unlucky." There won't be another cycle either. Even if reincarnation does exist, I won't be partaking.

 

[ylenol]

I do not agree and truly believe some most people thrive and fit. Also I'm not sure you'll be given a choice as you already pointed out, you didn't ask to be born in this very cycle.