Story i challenged my insecurities

[Haematemesis]

i never read jung or anyone like him but i thought what if i characterize my insecurities and confront them?

since i love fancy names i called my anxiety merimna which is anxiety in greek and my paranoia pseudother which means lying beast

then i sat down and imagined them. merimna as a twitching figure and pseudother as a whispering shadowy figure

i took a piece of paper and made them talk. i tried to put their whispers into full sentences. then i made them put forth arguments against me. listing all the insecurities and anxious thoughts they had in their inventory

i then tried to debate them like i debate a person. i mostly used logic and sometimes emotional arguments. i imagined them weakening with each word of mine

finally i imagined myself victorious upon them

after all these i felt a sense of slight relief and i know this won't make those thoughts go away but I realized i can defeat some of their arguments with pure logic

this is the conclusion i liked the most, seeing their arguments have basis on truth but twisted and understanding that logical thinking is healthy way to approach these things

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