Fellow nearly daily crybaby here.
For about 2 years. Seldom cried before that.
Anyways 15 min - 4 hours per day just depends.
Abusing kratom helps me keep it to like once/day 15-30 min. NOT recommending you do this.
Also I don't usually get headaches from it. Though I get headaches when I feel the need to cry but can't--I think this is dehydration and may be afflicting you as well. Most people aren't crying every day like us so be sure to salt up your food, drink a lot of water, magnesium supplements etc. Otherwise it's like dry-heaving but dry-crying and makes it all even more miserable.
Also I seldom feel better after a cry because I still feel like I'm in hell so it's just like entering a state of helplessness like a person being burned to death knows there's nothing to do so just freezes in shock.
But if it's a very long session like a brutal 2+ hour screaming and visions of my damnation, then taking drugs when it settles can give a light euphoria which I almost never experience. Like I might feel like a normal human that is alive again for an hour or two in such a case.
I even cry in public now because it just happens and there's nothing I can do. I feel helpless like I shit my pants or something. But nobody cares anyway other than maybe thinking I am weak scum that needs to just man the fuck up cuz people avoid you like a homeless person when you've got tears on your face.
Wish I could help more other than to say 'hydrate & electrolytes' but if I was worth a damn capable of unfucking my hell-life I guess I wouldn't be here.
Hoping you find peace.
Same here nearly. It is a very slight consolation to know that others out there feel the same.
I take mag and eat salty food, but could load up on water more, thank you. Although, for me I think it's more the pressure from tears building up in my forehead.
I cannot find a dealer with kratom in my country anywhere, so I never tried it. I did a month of opioids but that turned into a financial and withdrawal disaster just adding to the mental anguish, so I'm being treated for opioid addiction now.
A year ago, crying a day 4 hours would lead to a few days of feeling numb, which was a relief. But now that is gone too, like you, there is no relief at all. No catharsis.
And yes, I now cry in public too. Just not audibly. I just cannot stop the tears.
I cry audibly at home, and feel ashamed when passing my neighbor's though. But there is nothing I can do. I cannot afford a secluded house alone in the forest.
I wish you well in finding peace too. Thanks for the comment.
