Venting I don't belong in this world, humans don't want me on their planet

[KillingPain267]

I was never liked or accepted by humans in this world. I don't contribute to society the way they want and I'm just a waste of space. At best I'm a target for bullying or an obstacle to bypass. So I'll do humanity a favor and depart this earth very soon. It's what they all want, apparently.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Do you think it would make you want to stay if people did want you here? I'm sorry though. Being bullied is terrible. I suspect the majority of people vaguely in my life would prefer me to stay but honestly, that just means more tethers here. Thankfully, the majority of them are pretty loose for me. Once the main one has gone, I think I'm going to be able to shake the others off.

I suppose the issue (for me) is- it's not practically or even emotionally helpful to know my death will upset others. It doesn't help me to live. It just makes me feel guilty about bringing about my death. That's my experience but then, I can also completely understand the hurt of feeling abandoned or rejected or bullied- I've also experienced that here and there. I'm sorry.

 

[babouflo201223]

Je n'ai jamais été aimé ni accepté par les humains de ce monde. Je ne contribue pas à la société comme ils le souhaitent et je ne suis qu'une perte de temps. Au mieux, je suis une cible de harcèlement ou un obstacle à contourner. Je vais donc rendre service à l'humanité et quitter cette terre très bientôt. C'est ce qu'ils veulent tous, apparemment.

What you say is terrible, I send big hugs to you. I'm sure someone in this world would love you and accept you just as you are. I know, it's easy to say that blablabla blablabla. But I really think it's true. It seems to me that people like you (or me) on this forum could create a big and strong chain of love with a lot of comfort. Crazy to write that on a forum devoted to CTB but I note that many of us talk about CTB, want CTB, but are still alive month after month. If alive, it would be better to help each other as much as we can in the way that our lives become a bit better. Of course it's not easy, especially when we are from different countries, but we are DIFFERENT from other people and it doesn't mean that they have to drive us to death. If we want to die, we die, it's not the matter. But if we can find help and comfort, if we need them, WHY NOT ?? Many of us (not all of course) don't really want to die but are pushed to that because of different reasons in our life that seem without any solution. Couldn't we try to find solutions together in these cases ? It's maybe not realistic, I don't know, maybe just a dream...

 

[Yume Nikki]

I've been targeted and stalked throughout my late teens years and bullied endlessly, so I totally understand that feeling of being unwanted by society. It doesn't help that I've had friends ghost me in the past alongside a painful breakup I'm currently going through that's making it even more difficult for me to survive.

 

[Unknown21]

Fuck humans and humanity u have the right to live as you have the right to die, Whether they like it or not, you have the right to be on this planet if u want so as they do, hugs.

 

[astr4]

i understand your pain, i'm sorry, it must feel so incredibly lonely. the world is so needlessly cruel and we are all so judgemental. you deserve better and kinder.