i don't even want to kill myself

[ravenx]

it's so damn complicated to even die, how tf are you supposed to even put effort to organize your own death when you're so done with everything.

i will die anyway as years pass, and im so numb now that i swear i could live my entire life without even speaking or having any contact with anyone despite wanting it.

I'm so hurt. My girlfriend is going to another country. Her parents hate me. She was my only hope to get better cause she gave me a reason to do things.

I just want to rot, but if a gun is given to me, or If the opportunity of putting a gun against my head is given, I wouldn't even doubt about it, and just splatter my brain all over the place. No regards to no one, who cares, we are just meat.

I hope if God reads this, omnipotent, get me out of here.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I feel your hurt. My person left for another country as well. Empty as hell inside.

 

[cali22♡]

I feel your pain. You seem very exhausted, so you can't think about death. I don't know what that feels like, but I can really understand it

 

[theshund]

It's ok to feel like that.

Tie yourself to the mast and wait for the storm to pass. It will pass and you'll look back and thank god you didn't have access to a firearm. But it takes time, maybe a long time. No worries, just opt out for a while.

Go easy on yourself.

 

[ravenx]

It's ok to feel like that.

Tie yourself to the mast and wait for the storm to pass. It will pass and you'll look back and thank god you didn't have access to a firearm. But it takes time, maybe a long time. No worries, just opt out for a while.

Go easy on yourself.

I hope that'll be my case because we all have our SI kicking in when the opportunity arrives. But I really see no point in living. I am not even slightly attractive to have a bunch of options where I can rely to. I don't have a family. I only have myself but I'm fraudulent, I'm a failure, and I can't get saved on my own. It's reinforced with the past.

Virgin and humiliated, stupid, ugly, and so many negative adjectives that people gave me through the years.

I feel your pain. You seem very exhausted, so you can't think about death. I don't know what that feels like, but I can really understand it

I am worse than exhausted. It's hell on earth.