Help I don't know what to do

[Alpr4zolam]

I have suicidal thoughts every day, all the time and this is killing me slowly. I can't study, I can't work, I can't sing, I can't do anything. I want to kill myself, but I don't want to leave my family, friends and boyfriend sad.

I have depression, anxiety, agoraphobia and schizophrenia, I'm only 17. What can I do? I cut my wrists every day and bought a new black belt to hang myself, but I don't dare do it.

Can someone help me ?? What should I do?

 

[Ldog9]

Sounds like you have good people that you love and care about. i'm sure they feel they same way about you and will support you. have you tried reaching out to them about your suicidal thoughts?

 

[AhG]

What is your most perferred method at the moment?

 

[Alpr4zolam]

Sounds like you have good people that you love and care about. i'm sure they feel they same way about you and will support you. have you tried reaching out to them about your suicidal thoughts?

I told them about my suicidal problems... I don't wanna let them, but I really wanna die

 

[Alpr4zolam]

What is your most perferred method at the moment?

Jump from a build, overdose or hang myself

 

[Tomoe]

What was their response to you telling them about suicide?

Is there something that keeps you going? What's making you want to CTB? Just based on what you've mentioned in your post, I feel you have a lot but I'd love to hear more about you

 

[Donewith_]

Sorry to see you are here. Hugs. are you into therapy? It really changes life for some people. good to know you've got your family, bf, friends.. you told you don't want to leave them, that means you still love them, can't let go of them. And they love you too may be.
I suggest to seek support from your well-wishers. Sometimes, depression hits us with no specific reason. I hope it turns out in a good way for you.

 

[Lady black]

Why do you want to die. You have to ask yourself what is the reason for your deathwish and if it´s possible to change the reason

 

[Alpr4zolam]

What was their response to you telling them about suicide?

Is there something that keeps you going? What's making you want to CTB? Just based on what you've mentioned in your post, I feel you have a lot but I'd love to hear more about you

I'm dealing with a psychiatrist, things have improved a bit, but I feel the same desire to kill myself every day.

Honestly, I don't know why I want CTB, I hate myself a lot, so my last thoughts would be "You do not deserve to breathe and live, just die."

 

[Alpr4zolam]

Sorry to see you are here. Hugs. are you into therapy? It really changes life for some people. good to know you've got your family, bf, friends.. you told you don't want to leave them, that means you still love them, can't let go of them. And they love you too may be.
I suggest to seek support from your well-wishers. Sometimes, depression hits us with no specific reason. I hope it turns out in a good way for you.

your words comfort me in a certain way, seriously, thank you.

I'm still in therapy 8 months ago or so, I've improved little since the beginning of everything, but I've improved.

 

[Alpr4zolam]

Why do you want to die. You have to ask yourself what is the reason for your deathwish and if it´s possible to change the reason

I think about it for years, but a black hole seems to take all the reasons. I know that suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems, but it saddens me a lot.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I have suicidal thoughts every day, all the time and this is killing me slowly. I can't study, I can't work, I can't sing, I can't do anything. I want to kill myself, but I don't want to leave my family, friends and boyfriend sad.

I have depression, anxiety, agoraphobia and schizophrenia, I'm only 17. What can I do? I cut my wrists every day and bought a new black belt to hang myself, but I don't dare do it.

Can someone help me ?? What should I do?

hey, just know you are not alone. i feel the same way since i was 14 and when i went to school i couldn't study properly because of it mainly because of Doc and gender dysphoria. i'd be fake if i tell you "no please don't do it or don't do that". if you can't continue living like this you have 2 ways: go to someone who can help you or ctb. you are the only one who really know what to do

 

[Tomoe]

I'm dealing with a psychiatrist, things have improved a bit, but I feel the same desire to kill myself every day.

Honestly, I don't know why I want CTB, I hate myself a lot, so my last thoughts would be "You do not deserve to breathe and live, just die."

What makes you hate yourself? What'd you do or what happened that you believe you're not good enough to live?

I hate myself as well. I hate that I sometimes say things but don't realize that the person I'm speaking to might interpret it otherwise. I hate the lazy side of me. I hate that I sometimes give up when things get hard. I hate that sometimes I overlook people's feelings. I hate that I don't always seek help when I should. I hate that I'm not proactive enough, that I don't have enough motivation.

 

[Donewith_]

your words comfort me in a certain way, seriously, thank you.

I'm still in therapy 8 months ago or so, I've improved little since the beginning of everything, but I've improved.

Good to know that:)