Background: I (18F) live in a city apartment with my boyfriend, he's in school most days and I work. I can't do anything at my parents' homes. My car is at my dad's and I can pretty much say with certainty that I won't be able to drive myself anywhere. If my bf suspects something is wrong he'll call 911 immediately. I can't CTB outside; by the time my SN gets here and my antiemetic prescription is filled there will probably be a few feet of snow.
I'm wondering if I should tell my bf that my dad is picking me up to stay with him for the night. If he's at school while my father "gets me", I can go to a hotel and take my SN there. Still, the unfamiliarity will be so fucking sad. Will I be found before I decay in a hospital? Will I be heard if I convulse and breathe agonally? WWYD?
I just want to say first, I'm sorry you're feeling this way and wanting out of this life. You're very young and have so much in front of you. I don't want to talk you out of this because I'm the end it's your choice and I am here to just be supportive no matter what. But with that said, truly reflect on your heart and what could be in front of you.
So, to answer your question, sounds like the options are a bit challenging. My first thought is, do you stay with your boyfriend? If so would you be able to do it while he's at school so you're able to do it somewhere you feel comfortable?
Secondly, if that isn't an option, you mentioned how it is cold and snowy outside, so there is the option of doing it at home then going for a walk and finding somewhere quiet, in nature you can sit, your body temperature will lower from the snow/cold along with the SN taking effect. This can possibly put you in a sleep like state due to the combination of the cold and the SN. If you can find somewhere that isn't bother with people and you can withstand the cold temperature.
Third, many are saying a hotel. I think if you are 100% about CTB then maybe spending money on an AirBnB or something a little more comfortable then a hotel is worthwhile. If the thought of being in a place with that isn't as comfortable for you such as a hotel or motel then perhaps the option above is worth the money you'd have to fork out.
Lastly, doing it at home or somewhere else that you do feel more comfortable is important but making sure you won't be bothered if obviously important. Doing it before bed and then putting some of your favorite music on to listen to may be another option so it would help drown any sounds out. I'm sorry you're suffering in life and now dealing with a lot of stress trying to decide where to take the SN.
No matter how you decide to do it, I hope you find peace and comfort and the process doesn't bring you more stress. Sending love your way.