I don't want to feel. About to find pills to OD on to numb myself

[Rachel]

Wish me luck...Ill keep you updated.

 

[Minudah]

Overdosing on pills is already a bad idea, but just finding random pills to overdose on will just make you really, really sick. It's rare for unplanned overdoses to actually work, when they do they just cause a long and painful death. There are so many better ways to go. This forum has a lot of great threads on them. Don't overdose on pills

 

[Rachel]

I

Overdosing on pills is already a bad idea, but just finding random pills to overdose on will just make you really, really sick. It's rare for unplanned overdoses to actually work, when they do they just cause a long and painful death. There are so many better ways to go. This forum has a lot of great threads on them. Don't overdose on pills

Im not trying to commit suicide. I just dont want my brain to feel as much if that makes since... so far Ive found my moms bottle of valium. Theres a bunch of other medicines too but Im gonna look them up before taking them

 

[Minudah]

I

Im not trying to commit suicide. I just dont want my brain to feel as much if that makes since... so far Ive found my moms bottle of valium. Theres a bunch of other medicines too but Im gonna look them up before taking them

What do you think that's going to accomplish other than making you extremely sick, giving you far more problems than you already have?

 

[Rachel]

I

I

Im not trying to commit suicide. I just dont want my brain to feel as much if that makes since... so far Ive found my moms bottle of valium. Theres a bunch of other medicines too but Im gonna look them up before taking them

I want to feel out of it for a while...and the liquore store is closed so pills is all I have to try

 

[Minudah]

And when you come to? You think you're not going to have more reason to want to feel out of it? Your problems will be a lot worse. This is impulsive nonsense

 

[Rachel]

And when you come to? You think you're not going to have more reason to want to feel out of it? Your problems will be a lot worse. This is impulsive nonsense

I am literally human trash. Nothing that happens to me matters

 

[DoneFighting]

Don't do it. Your mom will find out and then you will be watched. Go to a gas station and get some wine.

 

[meaningisgone]

And when you come to? You think you're not going to have more reason to want to feel out of it? Your problems will be a lot worse. This is impulsive nonsense

Easy to be rational and objective about other people's situations, isn't it? If you've never been in the frame of mind where you'll do destructive, impulsive things to numb your mind, I envy and salute you.

Meanwhile, I've been pondering today about what pills I can scavenge up for a dose of oblivion as well. I am not saying it's wise, or condoning my own thought or behavioral processes. I am just saying, it's where some of us are at.

 

[Rachel]

Don't do it. Your mom will find out and then you will be watched. Go to a gas station and get some wine.

I didnt know gas stations sold wine...thats good to know

 

[Rachel]

Valium can mellow you out a bit. 10 mgs will calm you down so you can get through

I had taken 25mg of valium plus 6mg of melatonin. (Ive never had valium before so my system is probably like wtf is this lol) I feel mellow for sure. 10 probably wouldve been better

 

[meaningisgone]

I am literally human trash. Nothing that happens to me matters

I honestly feel the same way about myself, so I'll resist my quaint reflex to give you a sparkly pep talk. I hope you find what you're looking for. Reach out if you need it.

 

[Rachel]

I honestly feel the same way about myself, so I'll resist my quaint reflex to give you a sparkly pep talk. I hope you find what you're looking for. Reach out if you need it.

Thank you xx

 

[Rachel]

5

25 mgs?? Are you sure?? That's a lot. Diazepam? How many pills???

 

[Rachel]

5

5 (5mg) + plus the melatonin added sedation. I feel okay. My brain just feels a little slow and I feel pretty sedated. But thats what I wanted I guess

 

[Rachel]

Im going to sleep guys. Thanks for the responses. It honestly made me feel not as alone. Good night

 

[Sickman75]

And when you come to? You think you're not going to have more reason to want to feel out of it? Your problems will be a lot worse. This is impulsive nonsense

Some of us need to escape because living inside our heads can be a fucking nightmare. If I can get my head to stop for an hour I'll take whatever I can find it's not impulsive nonsense it's letting me be free for however long it lasts so I wouldn't really pass too much judgement down

 

[Kirkscoobz]

Try Dihydracodeine,
Take 4 tablets with a swig on wine,

Happy days.