I failed...

[Smallguy4you]

I could not move myself to do it. I understand, what there is nothing I can do to get my life better, I know myself too damn well. probably same weak will does not allow me to leave, leaving me in state between, when I am too tired and scared to live life and achieve something and yet, I am also too scared and weak to end it.

I really hope to find a way to get around that stupid SI

 

[Forveleth]

It is ok. Killing yourself is surprisingly difficult. Do not beat yourself up over it. Take some time to rest and relax if you can after your attempt. After some time, maybe evaluate your approach or your method and see if you can improve anything. Half of us have been there, we know.

 

[lost_one]

I understand how you feel, it's a very frustraiting feeling, I am so sorry you feel that way, but I second the other comment, don't be too harsh on yourself, get some rest... Tomorrow is another day

 

[KillingPain267]

What was your method?

 

[sobsob]

i understand how you feel! it's like even though you want to do it so badly, your reflexes just wont let you go through with it. it makes sense biologically, but its very frustrating! i hope you find what you are looking for :)

 

[maniac116]

 

[human909]

I am so sorry that it failed, hopefully next time it works out well for you.

 

[Smallguy4you]

What was your method?

jumping from 9-story apartment.

 

[KillingPain267]

jumping from 9-story apartment.

Maybe this method is not for you. Heights are the most scary to me. I can watch hours of video of gore decapitations, but those parkour guys who jump around on tall buildings... they scare me even though they don't fall. So I have ruled that method out for me entirely. I know no drugs or drinks could numb me enough to just jump or let go.

 

[maniac116]

I couldn't possibly do that & don't see how anyone could! The pain inside you must be terrible to consider that method.
I'm just glad you're OK

 

[Smallguy4you]

I couldn't possibly do that & don't see how anyone could! The pain inside you must be terrible to consider that method.
I'm just glad you're OK

Because I want just to leave, I don't care much gore I leave behind, once I am at other side it won'' be my business.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'm so sorry for your suffering. May you find peace soon