Venting I feel hopeless and sad asf!!!

[ihatepain]

I can't even kill myself right. I can't think of the right method to use. Only the scary and messy methods are available (e.g. jumping, train etc). I feel alone and helpless. I wish someone could give me N. I have no friends. No human will help me. I feel like this world wants to watch me suffer. Wtf is wrong with this world!!!!! How do i die? Wtf do i do fmlllll

 

[DeadlyLiving]

We live in a world full of pro-lifer that aren't okay with people wanting to ctb. It's stupid and shitty, and if we want reasons why we shouldn't kill yourself they say it's selfish and we should think about the pain and suffer our loved ones and family members would go through, but what about the pain we bear on a daily basis that is just too much to handle? It's selfish if someone would rather see you suffer than themselves.

Have you thought about trying it with SN or what about partial suspension? Both aren't messy but I think every method has something scary because death is fatal and if you are dead you can't just change your mind and go back.

 

[ihatepain]

We live in a world full of pro-lifer that aren't okay with people wanting to ctb. It's stupid and shitty, and if we want reasons why we shouldn't kill yourself they say it's selfish and we should think about the pain and suffer our loved ones and family members would go through, but what about the pain we bear on a daily basis that is just too much to handle? It's selfish if someone would rather see you suffer than themselves.

Have you thought about trying it with SN or what about partial suspension? Both aren't messy but I think every method has something scary because death is fatal and if you are dead you can't just change your mind and go back.

Yeah I have been thinking about SN but if SN really worked, why is it openly sold everywhere? Im abit skeptical

 

[ScorpiusDragon]

I heard partial suspension hanging is painless

 

[CornerE]

Same here , pretty much the same .

I never been able to find even ONE person to help me out .

I'm no longer capable of trusting Anybody .

I don't know what else to do .
I just want to get it over with .
It never happens .

I'm literally helpless .

 

[ihatepain]

Same here , pretty much the same .

I never been able to find even ONE person to help me out .

I'm no longer capable of trusting Anybody .

I don't know what else to do .
I just want to get it over with .
It never happens .

I'm literally helpless .

I'm sorry you are going through this. No sentient being deserves suffering :(

 

[CornerE]

I'm sorry you are going through this. No sentient being deserves suffering :(

Thanks ihatepain
Neither do you deserve it for sure .
But it's not a fair world anyway .

 

[Alchemist]

You show exactly my worst fears when thinking about ctb. It's so hard that I can only think how if I try I will fail the same I fail at everything.

 

[tomz323]

Same, I just want to sleep every time I'm awake.

 

[DeadlyLiving]

Yeah I have been thinking about SN but if SN really worked, why is it openly sold everywhere? Im abit skeptical

It is really easy to get it online, that is true but it has a big use - curing meat. I am not an expert though but using SN for a suicide isn't your "everyday suicide" option so it isn't widely known yet and thus it is still easy to buy.
We don't have that much information on using SN to ctb yet also, but there are a lot of people that used it and found their peace. Most of the people that have failed using this method didn't take the anitemetics and acid regulators and these are important

 

[a3nova]

It is really easy to get it online, that is true but it has a big use - curing meat. I am not an expert though but using SN for a suicide isn't your "everyday suicide" option so it isn't widely known yet and thus it is still easy to buy.
We don't have that much information on using SN to ctb yet also, but there are a lot of people that used it and found their peace. Most of the people that have failed using this method didn't take the anitemetics and acid regulators and these are important

I second that, But security of easily getting SN is going to change in few months I think , they are going to dilute the formula somehow or make difficult to buy, not trying to be an ass but barbiturates were available in soft drinks one point of time.

 

[ihatepain]

You show exactly my worst fears when thinking about ctb. It's so hard that I can only think how if I try I will fail the same I fail at everything.

Hugs :(

It is really easy to get it online, that is true but it has a big use - curing meat. I am not an expert though but using SN for a suicide isn't your "everyday suicide" option so it isn't widely known yet and thus it is still easy to buy.
We don't have that much information on using SN to ctb yet also, but there are a lot of people that used it and found their peace. Most of the people that have failed using this method didn't take the anitemetics and acid regulators and these are important

Thanks for the info. I appreciate it.

I second that, But security of easily getting SN is going to change in few months I think , they are going to dilute the formula somehow or make difficult to buy, not trying to be an ass but barbiturates were available in soft drinks one point of time.

Why do you think SN is going to be hard to get in a few months? Do you think they are going to make it harder to obtain worldwide or only in certain countries?

 

[I am ___________]

Your not alone, we all feel sad and hopeless.... but know that you have really kind people hear that will listen to you and try their best to help you. This is the only space where you can truly show how you feel and express your thoughts without fear.

 

[ihatepain]

Your not alone, we all feel sad and hopeless.... but know that you have really kind people hear that will listen to you and try their best to help you. This is the only space where you can truly show how you feel and express your thoughts without fear.

Not everybody here is nice and understanding and rational. There are people arguing with me about gender inequality and they are telling me how women have it so much worse than men do. I'm so sick of human beings. The fact that feminism exists is a good enough reason for me to end myself (out of the many many many other reasons).