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InquiringIndividual

InquiringIndividual

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I just don't understand how civilization could be how it is. It's far too removed from anything I can appreciate or agree with. No, I won't participate in it. I choose death and self-dignity over becoming just another mindless cog perpetuating an unconscious system. I wish I could've been stronger so that I could have made a considerable difference, but I know who I am, and I know the cards I was dealt. Life is just too much of a chore, and I simply can not be bothered with it anymore. I've already been through so much already, I need and deserve a break.

Goodness, beauty, and the sublime do exist in this world. I've seen it first-hand. Unfortunately, I lack the support, the strength, the community and infrastructure to reach and sustain higher states of living. That's OK, not everyone can be a winner. I can accept the losing hand, and bow out with some degree of self-respect. I'm just frustrated that things had to pan out the way they did. I feel as if my spirit had and still has a lot to offer, but for whatever reason my life spiralled out of my control leaving me a dead man walking. Oh well.. maybe the next life will be worth a damn?

I'm reading Osamu Dazai's "No Longer Human".

I'm listening to FKJ's discography.

What a wonderful way to put a bow on this existence.
 
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I feel just like you. Society is a fucking joke. How did we as humans end up like this? It's beyond me. I hate this world
 
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I feel just like you. Society is a fucking joke. How did we as humans end up like this? It's beyond me. I hate this world
Greed, fear, and malice are the main culprits for the world being the way it is. If you identify with your humanity, then I suppose you could say we're the victims of our own nature. Our very humanity is the source of our anguish.We'll get through this eventually, but for now there will be countless individual lives akin to those of the damned.

"The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation"
 
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FuneralCry

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I understand finding it a burden to exist, to me existence will always be the most cruel, futile burden, to permanently cease existing is all I personally hope for but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should had been forced into existence. But anyway I hope that you find peace.
 
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CogitoMori

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This is exactly how I feel and I'm thankful you put it into words because I can't
 
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Rational man

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I resona
I just don't understand how civilization could be how it is. It's far too removed from anything I can appreciate or agree with. No, I won't participate in it. I choose death and self-dignity over becoming just another mindless cog perpetuating an unconscious system. I wish I could've been stronger so that I could have made a considerable difference, but I know who I am, and I know the cards I was dealt. Life is just too much of a chore, and I simply can not be bothered with it anymore. I've already been through so much already, I need and deserve a break.

Goodness, beauty, and the sublime do exist in this world. I've seen it first-hand. Unfortunately, I lack the support, the strength, the community and infrastructure to reach and sustain higher states of living. That's OK, not everyone can be a winner. I can accept the losing hand, and bow out with some degree of self-respect. I'm just frustrated that things had to pan out the way they did. I feel as if my spirit had and still has a lot to offer, but for whatever reason my life spiralled out of my control leaving me a dead man walking. Oh well.. maybe the next life will be worth a damn?

I'm reading Osamu Dazai's "No Longer Human".

I'm listening to FKJ's discography.

What a wonderful way to put a bow on this existence.
I resonate with your feelings to a degree. Since I became ill, due to what I think was connected to the c19 vax or some unidentified pathogen, I have become increasingly alienated from fellow humans. Maybe my mind has been fxxxd over by the vax or somethingelse, but ive become super sensative to the anger and despair I see in people. I was once a sociable guy and I enjoyed the warmth from others. Now, everything seems so cold, isolated and ive become so irritable and impatient. Im sorry you suffer like you say.
 
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