InquiringIndividual
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- Jan 16, 2025
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I just don't understand how civilization could be how it is. It's far too removed from anything I can appreciate or agree with. No, I won't participate in it. I choose death and self-dignity over becoming just another mindless cog perpetuating an unconscious system. I wish I could've been stronger so that I could have made a considerable difference, but I know who I am, and I know the cards I was dealt. Life is just too much of a chore, and I simply can not be bothered with it anymore. I've already been through so much already, I need and deserve a break.
Goodness, beauty, and the sublime do exist in this world. I've seen it first-hand. Unfortunately, I lack the support, the strength, the community and infrastructure to reach and sustain higher states of living. That's OK, not everyone can be a winner. I can accept the losing hand, and bow out with some degree of self-respect. I'm just frustrated that things had to pan out the way they did. I feel as if my spirit had and still has a lot to offer, but for whatever reason my life spiralled out of my control leaving me a dead man walking. Oh well.. maybe the next life will be worth a damn?
I'm reading Osamu Dazai's "No Longer Human".
I'm listening to FKJ's discography.
What a wonderful way to put a bow on this existence.
Goodness, beauty, and the sublime do exist in this world. I've seen it first-hand. Unfortunately, I lack the support, the strength, the community and infrastructure to reach and sustain higher states of living. That's OK, not everyone can be a winner. I can accept the losing hand, and bow out with some degree of self-respect. I'm just frustrated that things had to pan out the way they did. I feel as if my spirit had and still has a lot to offer, but for whatever reason my life spiralled out of my control leaving me a dead man walking. Oh well.. maybe the next life will be worth a damn?
I'm reading Osamu Dazai's "No Longer Human".
I'm listening to FKJ's discography.
What a wonderful way to put a bow on this existence.
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