nzdarkshark
The Loved Mistake
- Sep 4, 2018
- 400
I don't care if no one sees this or cares about it I just need to vent.
I am such a failure as a friend, as a person.
I'm pushing everyone away; my friends, my family, my girlfriend. Everyone.
Everyday I get worse and lie and tell people what they want to hear so an argument doesn't occur.
My friend got mad at me because he says he doesn't know if anything I say he can trust.
I think everyone knows I'm going to leave eventually they just don't want to lose me. I don't know why. The only thing that would be lost is any creative talent I have.
My school work's grades are slowly declining as I lose energy and motivation.
I just want to cry and ctb. People would miss me and my death would break so many people. I can't even get myself to pass out I'm just so fed up with life and myself I just want to be free from myself. I don't have access to alcohol or drugs due to my age and I just don't know. I just want to go. To disappear. To go.
People deserve so much better than I could ever give them.
I don't understand why people want me to stay.
I am such a failure as a friend, as a person.
I'm pushing everyone away; my friends, my family, my girlfriend. Everyone.
Everyday I get worse and lie and tell people what they want to hear so an argument doesn't occur.
My friend got mad at me because he says he doesn't know if anything I say he can trust.
I think everyone knows I'm going to leave eventually they just don't want to lose me. I don't know why. The only thing that would be lost is any creative talent I have.
My school work's grades are slowly declining as I lose energy and motivation.
I just want to cry and ctb. People would miss me and my death would break so many people. I can't even get myself to pass out I'm just so fed up with life and myself I just want to be free from myself. I don't have access to alcohol or drugs due to my age and I just don't know. I just want to go. To disappear. To go.
People deserve so much better than I could ever give them.
I don't understand why people want me to stay.