Venting I feel so alone.

[Anhaedra]

Loneliness is one of the reasons Im considering ctb. I lost the only person I would consider a real friend last year. Ever since then, Ive been feeling so incredibly lonely, it physically hurts. Everything feels like a burden to do, even the most minute task, let alone work. Im surrounded by people but I cant help feeling so alone. Maybe because Im so different from them, that they dont understand me or I cant make them understand me. Im scared of making new friends, what if I lose them again, I cant handle another loss. I know that losing people is a part of life, but I wish it wasn't. Its so cruel of life to make us build friendships and relationships only for them (or you) to be gone in the end, and by gone I mean dead.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you've suffered a lot, it's so cruel to me how there's all this suffering in existing, I understand feeling like it's a burden to exist. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[ilvgore]

Ohhhh you sound like me. I also hate the ability to want to socialise cause in the end you cant influence the decisions people make. Losing people also makes me wamt to avoid all types of relationships, it hurts my ego. It feels like they rejected my personality and then i have this thought, that everybody will think like that. That they can see the insecurity about myself:( I understand you.

 

[human909]

I hate being lonely too, what makes it even more painful for me is that my stupid brain thought i had real friends but at the end it just turned out i had no real friend. They fucking betrayed me over a "friend" i called that lies and it hurts me so bad. I don't get this freakin world, i wish you all the best.