Discussion I figured out a new way I like to self harm

[nomoredolor]

Cutting alone isnt doing it for me as of late to help the emotional pain. I need more. I tried something new. I made a cut with a razor blade, let it heal a little bit. Then I used a lighter to heat up the blade and I pressed it against the cut. It hurt so bad it made me scream and it briefly pushed out all painful thoughts from my head. And it made me so nauseous which I don't enjoy. But it's addictive I kept doing it over and over for the distraction and dopamine rush, heating up the blade longer each time. And I kept saying it was the last one for this session and then would do a new last one. I'm like I can't believe I'm doing this I thought I was a wuss when it came to burns. But the mind numbing pain is exquisite. Just sharing my maladaptive coping mechanisms in the only place I can. Idk if the burning on top of the cut will make it more likely to scar where they're both superficial but I'm not planning on living long enough to care.

Anna

 

[shrizoid]

Cutting alone isnt doing it for me as of late to help the emotional pain. I need more. I tried something new. I made a cut with a razor blade, let it heal a little bit. Then I used a lighter to heat up the blade and I pressed it against the cut. It hurt so bad it made me scream and it briefly pushed out all painful thoughts from my head. And it made me so nauseous which I don't enjoy. But it's addictive I kept doing it over and over for the distraction and dopamine rush, heating up the blade longer each time. And I kept saying it was the last one for this session and then would do a new last one. I'm like I can't believe I'm doing this I thought I was a wuss when it came to burns. But the mind numbing pain is exquisite. Just sharing my maladaptive coping mechanisms in the only place I can. Idk if the burning on top of the cut will make it more likely to scar where they're both superficial but I'm not planning on living long enough to care.

Anna

That… sounds like an interesting method, I'd try but my cutting blade is rusted now, I'd rather not risk tetanus