KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,488
I never self-harmed before in my life, but in the last year I am suffering so much mentally that I'd rather feel intentional physical pain. My sad thoughts often suddenly appear out of nowhere and I can't take it. I used to take drugs and/or drink when it happened but that led to more misery. But since I stopped taking drugs and drinking, I have no way of quenching depressive and anxious thoughts. This has led me to considermself-harming, but since I cannot get myself to slice my skin open, I have found a different way: whipping myself with an extension wire. It hurts like hell without leaving too visible permanent scars. It feels releaving.