Blue Rose
Student
- Feb 6, 2021
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* Elysium : The paradise of the dead who had been loved or chosen by gods in their life. The concept in Greek myth.
In late-Chosun Dynasty, there were women called 'Yeol-Nyeo(Women who kept their faith by death)'.
Personally, I pity them. They were forced into cutting their life after their husband's death.
Or, they were forced into living on their secluded life until the Death hits them.
Anyway, there were three kinds of Yeol-Nyeo. Here I describe.
Class 1 - Women who did CTB immediately after her husband had died. it was considered as the best response.
Class 2 - Women who devoted their whole life to the secluded lifetime after their husband had died.
To marry an another man was strictly forbidden. In worst case, people who broke that taboo was killed by the rest of their family.
Class 3 - Women who devoted their life to serve their children and parents and relatives after their husband had died.
In these case, All Yeol-Nyeo classified Class 3 did CTB someday.
Looking up Yeola-Nyeo, I resented and felt pity for them. And... I noticed Class 3...
They were forced into doing CTB, and some of them wanted to do! But they had children, parents, relatives relying them also!
So they postponed their CTB, and devoted the rest of their life to them until they became independent or dead.
Then... finally, THEY DID IT.
Eventually, I found my Elysium. Relief and happiness which I have felt beyond all descriptions.
I am so glad to being able to control and chose myself and my life with my will!
I was not morbid! I was not an evil person! My heart was crying with true rapture.
But I must hold on. I have parents and boyfriend too.
I must devote my rest life to them first, and I will be able to do it.
To somebody, it will be terrible THAT only the death can console myself and my whole life completely.
However, I am very fine and happy. I embraced my time-limited life, and started to live my bright and joyful life indeed.
I shall find a regular job... I shall manage my condition and health... I shall taste and enjoy my life profoundly...
My parents, you did love me sometimes, you did abuse me sometimes.
You had presented me both light and darkness, now I appreciated both of them.
I am sure I love you so, then I shall try making your late days happy!
My beloved, you ARE NOT hypocrites. You ARE 'the other' who loved me unconditionally!
You...you did embrace even my darkness. You NEVER blamed me. You are unbiased and open truly.
I am sure I love you so, then I shall try making your late days happy!
In late-Chosun Dynasty, there were women called 'Yeol-Nyeo(Women who kept their faith by death)'.
Personally, I pity them. They were forced into cutting their life after their husband's death.
Or, they were forced into living on their secluded life until the Death hits them.
Anyway, there were three kinds of Yeol-Nyeo. Here I describe.
Class 1 - Women who did CTB immediately after her husband had died. it was considered as the best response.
Class 2 - Women who devoted their whole life to the secluded lifetime after their husband had died.
To marry an another man was strictly forbidden. In worst case, people who broke that taboo was killed by the rest of their family.
Class 3 - Women who devoted their life to serve their children and parents and relatives after their husband had died.
In these case, All Yeol-Nyeo classified Class 3 did CTB someday.
Looking up Yeola-Nyeo, I resented and felt pity for them. And... I noticed Class 3...
They were forced into doing CTB, and some of them wanted to do! But they had children, parents, relatives relying them also!
So they postponed their CTB, and devoted the rest of their life to them until they became independent or dead.
Then... finally, THEY DID IT.
Eventually, I found my Elysium. Relief and happiness which I have felt beyond all descriptions.
I am so glad to being able to control and chose myself and my life with my will!
I was not morbid! I was not an evil person! My heart was crying with true rapture.
But I must hold on. I have parents and boyfriend too.
I must devote my rest life to them first, and I will be able to do it.
To somebody, it will be terrible THAT only the death can console myself and my whole life completely.
However, I am very fine and happy. I embraced my time-limited life, and started to live my bright and joyful life indeed.
I shall find a regular job... I shall manage my condition and health... I shall taste and enjoy my life profoundly...
My parents, you did love me sometimes, you did abuse me sometimes.
You had presented me both light and darkness, now I appreciated both of them.
I am sure I love you so, then I shall try making your late days happy!
My beloved, you ARE NOT hypocrites. You ARE 'the other' who loved me unconditionally!
You...you did embrace even my darkness. You NEVER blamed me. You are unbiased and open truly.
I am sure I love you so, then I shall try making your late days happy!
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