I gave myself one year...

[Tired9090]

In January I made a pro.ise to myself that if things aren't better I would take my own life... We are coming up on that time quickly... Things haven't gotten better. In fact, they have gotten worse I would say.... I need to make sure my son is getting the treatment he needs and then I'm gone... I don't want it to be painful. I'm scared of becoming permanently disabled instead of dead and going to hell.

 

[mediocre]

It is scary I feel you. My time is mid-December and I am afraid. Time is rolling on fast and its starting to get real.