Venting I got rid of my childhood belongings and everything that I ever owned, I just wasn't able to "get rid of myself," aka kill myself.

[ConfusedHurting2632]

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I got rid my childhood photos. My childhood drawings. My childhood toys. My childhood friends (both in real life and online). My social medias. Deleted every account I ever made on the internet. Deleted my old email accounts. Completely ruined my own reputation. And so on and so forth.

And it didn't stop there. I did all this around age 18 or 19 or so. And I'm 23 now. So I basically got rid of everything I had from like to when I was just a baby who was just born all the way to age 18/19, to where I'd have basically nothing left altogether. Aka I got rid of all the more recent stuff as well.

Before killing myself for real I guess I just wanted to get rid of anything and everything associated with me. And when I did all this I made sure to make that all these things were ruined beyond repair.

So for my childhood toys before throwing them in the garbage I cut them up to pieces, took them apart, banged them against stuff, burned them, etc. For my childhood drawings I ripped them up to tiny pieces. I also ripped my childhood photos to tiny pieces. For my digital childhood photos I just simply deleted them permanently. For my childhood friends I said absurd unforgivable things to make them hate me forever. And so on and so forth.

And to be clear, this all didn't stop at JUST childhood things or childhood friends. It applied to more recent stuff as an adult too.

So since I got rid of all my childhood friends both in real life and online, as well as more recent friends I had around age 18/19, now I basically have zero friends altogether.

And yeah. Since I got rid of all my stuff, hopefully one day I can "get rid of myself," aka kill myself. I am kind of too scared to try any techniques or methods, but I'd hope at the very least I can get some sort of disease and die, or get ran over by a random car, or a criminal breaks into my house and shoots me, etc...you get the point.

And honestly, I wasn't all that close to those friends anyway, but at least I had the OPTION of talking to them whenever I wanted to. Now I don't.

TL;DR So I basically got rid of anything and everything I've ever owned so I guess I could get rid of anything and everything associated with me. Too bad I wasn't able to reach the logical next step, "getting rid of myself," aka, killing myself.

 

[sonny]

I hear you. I've made a lot of decisions from dark places.

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

I hear you. I've made a lot of decisions from dark places.

Yup...dark places definitely cause you to make a lot of irrational decisions. As for whether I regret them or not...eh...yes and no. Sometimes I regret them but other times I see that in the long run they didn't make too much of a difference at all.

Sometimes it feels like all my life decisions from infant to age 23 were all regrets/mistakes, and other times it's sort of like "eh who the fuck cares" because in the long run they didn't matter.

 

[katara]

This reminded me of when I was younger and threw away a bunch of childhood photos of myself because I hated seeing myself. I did this when I was like 13 and now there's barely any photos of myself. I never got my i.d either because I never go anywhere or do anything.
I only had one friend and she didn't really care about me sense we were never really that close. But ya besides the friend thing holy shit does what you say resonate with me. Things haven't gotten any better and I still can't do anything

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

This reminded me of when I was younger and threw away a bunch of childhood photos of myself because I hated seeing myself. I did this when I was like 13 and now there's barely any photos of myself. I never got my i.d either because I never go anywhere or do anything.
I only had one friend and she didn't really care about me sense we were never really that close. But ya besides the friend thing holy shit does what you say resonate with me. Things haven't gotten any better and I still can't do anything

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Damn, from what you described it almost seems like we're the same person on that front. Lol.

Since you mentioned the friend thing, I will say that for my "childhood friends" or "friends," they were more-so acquaintances than actually real friends. Like we'd talk semi-regularly but they'd never really invite me to any real life hangouts or anything. Like outside of school we'd never see each other. And we'd talk once in a while on social media, but they never made plans to invite me.

And to be more specific I don't know if "I got rid of them" is the exact right way to describe it. It's more I had a manic psychotic episode involving anger issues and they all left. And all of them left with zero hesitation or question. The second I started saying psychotic shit they didn't even try to understand the situation and just left. They didn't even question if perhaps my account was hacked (this being for the online friends, on social media). Even for the ones I had specifically warned I have mental illnesses like bipolar, schizophrenia, schizoaffective, and more, and thus prone to manic psychotic episodes, they still left me even knowing I have those illnesses.

So it was somewhat of a self-sabotage thing, but at the same time I was in a psychotic state when I started to say weird shit to them and threaten them.

But yeah. I never really had "real" friends or "close" friends either. More just acquaintances I talked to once in a while. And 9 times out of 10 they would just kind of ignore me every time I tried talking to them, both online and in real life.

TL:DR I actually never had real friends either. Like I'd talk with them semi-regularly but they would rarely, if ever invite me to anything, and they'd usually ignore me when I tried talking to them. So I can relate to you on that front.

 

[katara]

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Damn, from what you described it almost seems like we're the same person on that front. Lol.

Since you mentioned the friend thing, I will say that for my "childhood friends" or "friends," they were more-so acquaintances than actually real friends. Like we'd talk semi-regularly but they'd never really invite me to any real life hangouts or anything. Like outside of school we'd never see each other. And we'd talk once in a while on social media, but they never made plans to invite me.

And to be more specific I don't know if "I got rid of them" is the exact right way to describe it. It's more I had a manic psychotic episode involving anger issues and they all left. And all of them left with zero hesitation or question. The second I started saying psychotic shit they didn't even try to understand the situation and just left. They didn't even question if perhaps my account was hacked (this being for the online friends, on social media). Even for the ones I had specifically warned I have mental illnesses like bipolar, schizophrenia, schizoaffective, and more, and thus prone to manic psychotic episodes, they still left me even knowing I have those illnesses.

So it was somewhat of a self-sabotage thing, but at the same time I was in a psychotic state when I started to say weird shit to them and threaten them.

But yeah. I never really had "real" friends or "close" friends either. More just acquaintances I talked to once in a while. And 9 times out of 10 they would just kind of ignore me every time I tried talking to them, both online and in real life.

TL:DR I actually never had real friends either. Like I'd talk with them semi-regularly but they would rarely, if ever invite me to anything, and they'd usually ignore me when I tried talking to them. So I can relate to you on that front.

My friend was actually pretty similar to what you described. She only ever talked with me when we were alone. A few times when we were at school she had her own friend group and i was alone. I never had a best friend, just a few friends and acquaintances. I ended up not finishing school because of this. I was really upset because it just felt like I was alone and I always will be. I hated riding the bus and hearing people talking to their friends while all i could do is look out the window and wish i was somewhere else. Even online when i've tried making friends people ignore me a lot so i just kind of came to terms with this. Even on here there's a lot of people who remind me of my time in school because they act like they want to talk then never reply but they'll message other people and it makes me feel...weird. I guess I'm just too boring or something. It's weird because for example i messaged a woman on here who was into similar Youtubers but she never replied but is always online and messaging others. I don't know man, I'm just tired of this cycle.

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

My friend was actually pretty similar to what you described. She only ever talked with me when we were alone. A few times when we were at school she had her own friend group and i was alone. I never had a best friend, just a few friends and acquaintances. I ended up not finishing school because of this. I was really upset because it just felt like I was alone and I always will be. I hated riding the bus and hearing people talking to their friends while all i could do is look out the window and wish i was somewhere else. Even online when i've tried making friends people ignore me a lot so i just kind of came to terms with this. Even on here there's a lot of people who remind me of my time in school because they act like they want to talk then never reply but they'll message other people and it makes me feel...weird. I guess I'm just too boring or something. It's weird because for example i messaged a woman on here who was into similar Youtubers but she never replied but is always online and messaging others. I don't know man, I'm just tired of this cycle.

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Yeah, your friend sounds like she was pretty lame, lol. And yeah. I never really had truly close friends either, just acquaintances. I almost didn't finish school, though not necessarily for the same reasons. Mostly because I was dumb as hell and never improved on my school work. Even when I was put into special ed with easier work I still didn't improve at all, so they moved me back to regular classes since it didn't make a difference anyway, and they wanted to make room for special ed students who actually were going to improve, since the special ed classes were smaller with limited slots. I really only ended up finishing school because the teachers felt bad for me and wanted me to at least have the accomplishment of having completed high school since I was never gonna go to college or get a job anyway. And you might be thinking that my writing/typing skills are alright, but that's literally it. I can only express my feelings, but not actually write for academic assignments. And especially not math and other complex shit.

But yes, I do feel you on the loneliness! Times like lunch, school bus, and locker room were some of my least favorites since I was always alone while everyone else was talking and laughing with their friends. There were even times at lunch where I sat on the floor like the nerdy losers in high school movies. Lol. And yup, for me it's not any better online either! It's about equally as bad, and maybe even slightly worse if anything. For better or worse people online are way more straightforward than people in real life. People in real life may generally just avoid you or ignore you while people online will often go into detail about everything and anything they hate about you. And yeah. I've had times where it LOOKED like me and a person were gonna become friends, only for it to not go anywhere. Lol. Yeah, I believe I'm a combination of boring and insufferable and more. And yeah. That woman sounds lame too. I'm also tired of this cycle.

For the record, I WOULD like to say that you and me could become friends and regularly message each other...but here's the thing. I can't keep friendships to save my fucking life. And I always run a fear of either alienating people or hurting people. Part of this reason could be I have what's called Anti-Social Personality Disorder (ASPD), which is basically the formal term for the casual term psychopath/sociopath. So basically what this sort of means is I'm kind of emotionless/numb, and my sympathy/empathy for others runs pretty low. Then there's the issue of me not talking to "friends" for like a year or more because I'm feeling especially like a misanthrope. So in that time I don't access any social website/app/forum/whatever. And I avoid real life friendships too because I feel paranoid and don't want them to see me. Not to mention my manic psychotic episodes involving anger issues which happen mainly due to bipolar/schizoaffective, where I start to threaten people with death threats in extremely vivid detail and say a bunch of weird nonsensical shit. Though I usually don't mean what I say in those instances. It's just my brain going completely rogue/insect brain/violent carnivorous animal brain/whatever.

But in general though I will say, from what you've written you seem pretty cool and better than most people I see! And the Katara profile pic is a nice touch since I love Avatar. Though of course that's pretty vague as I don't know you in detail. In short to say there could be potential between us but I don't trust myself in making or keeping new friendships. Lol. At most we'd probably send a few messages to each other but then my mind would probably be "out of sight out of mind" and I'd end up forgetting you exist, like I did with all my other friends. And of course like I do with most digital sites/apps/forums, I might suddenly end up not using SanctionedSuicide at all for like a year or two. So yeah, lol. That's it, really.

TL;DR I can relate to you 100%, basically! The desperate feeling of lonliness is definitely one of the contributing causes for me to want to kill myself. And yeah, for me as well it's equally bad both in real life and online. People hate me and ignore me either way. Lol.

 

[katara]

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Yeah, your friend sounds like she was pretty lame, lol. And yeah. I never really had truly close friends either, just acquaintances. I almost didn't finish school, though not necessarily for the same reasons. Mostly because I was dumb as hell and never improved on my school work. Even when I was put into special ed with easier work I still didn't improve at all, so they moved me back to regular classes since it didn't make a difference anyway, and they wanted to make room for special ed students who actually were going to improve, since the special ed classes were smaller with limited slots. I really only ended up finishing school because the teachers felt bad for me and wanted me to at least have the accomplishment of having completed high school since I was never gonna go to college or get a job anyway. And you might be thinking that my writing/typing skills are alright, but that's literally it. I can only express my feelings, but not actually write for academic assignments. And especially not math and other complex shit.

But yes, I do feel you on the loneliness! Times like lunch, school bus, and locker room were some of my least favorites since I was always alone while everyone else was talking and laughing with their friends. There were even times at lunch where I sat on the floor like the nerdy losers in high school movies. Lol. And yup, for me it's not any better online either! It's about equally as bad, and maybe even slightly worse if anything. For better or worse people online are way more straightforward than people in real life. People in real life may generally just avoid you or ignore you while people online will often go into detail about everything and anything they hate about you. And yeah. I've had times where it LOOKED like me and a person were gonna become friends, only for it to not go anywhere. Lol. Yeah, I believe I'm a combination of boring and insufferable and more. And yeah. That woman sounds lame too. I'm also tired of this cycle.

For the record, I WOULD like to say that you and me could become friends and regularly message each other...but here's the thing. I can't keep friendships to save my fucking life. And I always run a fear of either alienating people or hurting people. Part of this reason could be I have what's called Anti-Social Personality Disorder (ASPD), which is basically the formal term for the casual term psychopath/sociopath. So basically what this sort of means is I'm kind of emotionless/numb, and my sympathy/empathy for others runs pretty low. Then there's the issue of me not talking to "friends" for like a year or more because I'm feeling especially like a misanthrope. So in that time I don't access any social website/app/forum/whatever. And I avoid real life friendships too because I feel paranoid and don't want them to see me. Not to mention my manic psychotic episodes involving anger issues which happen mainly due to bipolar/schizoaffective, where I start to threaten people with death threats in extremely vivid detail and say a bunch of weird nonsensical shit. Though I usually don't mean what I say in those instances. It's just my brain going completely rogue/insect brain/violent carnivorous animal brain/whatever.

But in general though I will say, from what you've written you seem pretty cool and better than most people I see! And the Katara profile pic is a nice touch since I love Avatar. Though of course that's pretty vague as I don't know you in detail. In short to say there could be potential between us but I don't trust myself in making or keeping new friendships. Lol. At most we'd probably send a few messages to each other but then my mind would probably be "out of sight out of mind" and I'd end up forgetting you exist, like I did with all my other friends. And of course like I do with most digital sites/apps/forums, I might suddenly end up not using SanctionedSuicide at all for like a year or two. So yeah, lol. That's it, really.

TL;DR I can relate to you 100%, basically! The desperate feeling of lonliness is definitely one of the contributing causes for me to want to kill myself. And yeah, for me as well it's equally bad both in real life and online. People hate me and ignore me either way. Lol.

I was pretty stupid as well I couldn't focus on anything. It's interesting you mention special ed because i actually hated the special ed kids in one of my schools because quite a number of them were normal i think their parents just wanted them to get extra attention. People totally ignore my issues, specifically my parents. Who labeled you as anti-social? I was called that when i was a kid just because i was quiet.
Aw that makes me so happy you also like Avatar, it was my fave childhood cartoon along with SpongeBob. I have taken time off of this site as well so if you wanted to talk anywhere else that would be fine with me. I honestly don't enjoy using this site as much as when i first joined. I just see the same people saying the same things, it gets old. So many people on here have acted interested in talking with me then never do. I exchanged numbers with a guy on here last week and he hasn't texted me much. He said it would be easier than messaging on here and i thought so too but now i feel like maybe he changed his mind I don't do much but i have some cute raccoon photos from the ones i feed near my house, so if you want to see anything like that, let me know. I don't have any pets but those are the closest thing i have. Besides them ahh, i don't have much. I used to play online games but my computer kept crashing which pissed me off so i quit. I can still play some just not the ones i want. Maybe sometime we could do something but you'll have to let me know what it is so i can test out if it will work first. let me know! you are the coolest person I've talked to on here in a while. For someone who claims to be anti-social you are quite friendly :)

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

I was pretty stupid as well I couldn't focus on anything. It's interesting you mention special ed because i actually hated the special ed kids in one of my schools because quite a number of them were normal i think their parents just wanted them to get extra attention. People totally ignore my issues, specifically my parents. Who labeled you as anti-social? I was called that when i was a kid just because i was quiet.
Aw that makes me so happy you also like Avatar, it was my fave childhood cartoon along with SpongeBob. I have taken time off of this site as well so if you wanted to talk anywhere else that would be fine with me. I honestly don't enjoy using this site as much as when i first joined. I just see the same people saying the same things, it gets old. So many people on here have acted interested in talking with me then never do. I exchanged numbers with a guy on here last week and he hasn't texted me much. He said it would be easier than messaging on here and i thought so too but now i feel like maybe he changed his mind I don't do much but i have some cute raccoon photos from the ones i feed near my house, so if you want to see anything like that, let me know. I don't have any pets but those are the closest thing i have. Besides them ahh, i don't have much. I used to play online games but my computer kept crashing which pissed me off so i quit. I can still play some just not the ones i want. Maybe sometime we could do something but you'll have to let me know what it is so i can test out if it will work first. let me know! you are the coolest person I've talked to on here in a while. For someone who claims to be anti-social you are quite friendly :)

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Ah yeah. It's quite lame when parents pretend their kids have mental disabilities just so they can get extra attention. Makes kids who ACTUALLY have mental disabilities look bad and not be taken as serious. And yeah, everyone totally ignores my issues, including my own parents. Even after many, many different diagnoses relating to mental health by professional psychiatrists they still believe I'm making all this up to this day just to have an excuse not to go to work or to go to school/university/college/whatever you wanna call it. And they believe that even as a little kid or toddler I was acting strange just for attention or to manipulate others. As for anti-social, it was actually a professional psychiatrist diagonsis. I wish it was just a self-diagnosis, but it's unfortunately official.

Ah, so Avatar and Spongebob! Funny you mention as those two were definitely pretty up there with my favorite shows. To be fair they're both from Nickelodeon, so not that much of a coincidence, but still awesome, haha. As a kid I hyperfixated on a whole bunch of different shows, not just those two, honestly.

As for if I wanted to talk anywhere else, I have an account on basically almost all major social media websites/apps. My usual main go-tos are Discord and Instagram just because I've been using them the longest and all of my "ex-friends" and "ex-acquaintances" were there, but to me it doesn't really matter too much either way as they're all the same garbage, lol. Beware though that I have a nasty habit of deleting all my accounts whenever I'm feeling like a misanthrope, lol. As we speak I actually had just deleted all my accounts like 2-3 weeks ago and recreated them all as a "blank slate" with nobody on my list because like if I wanna browse posts on places like Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook they require an account. I don't really use my phone number either as my parents don't pay the phone bill for my phone and I'm unable to get a job of my own either, so yeah, So as we speak I have basically nobody on those lists, and you would be the first, lol.

But yeah. Seeing people say the same things over and over can be boring. Though it seems to happen everywhere and anywhere for me, both online and in real life. Lol. And ah yeah. I do feel you on that front. Some people who would initially act like my best friends but then just ignore me. As for that guy, yeah, definitely sounds like one of those many type of people who just end up ignoring you, lol. I don't really do much most of the time either. Usually I'm sort of anhedonic. But at the same time I'm down for anything, a jack of all trades not too strongly against or for something, so to speak. Raccoons are cute, yeah. My area tends to have quite a few raccoons and possums here and there. My parents have three cats, but I wouldn't really call them my own as I don't interact with them most of the time, as I'm usually really low energy, but yes, they are cute, lol. Occasionally I'll play video games though I'm not super into them. With high anxiety and stuff even simple single player games can give me anxiety about winning or losing. And even for the more chill no win or lose type games my mind often goes blank and forgets the basic controls, even if very simple, lol. Probably something to do with schizophrenia and dissociation. But yeah. Usually I just do more low-key stuff like watching movies or TV shows, listening to music, etc. Though there are definitely many times I just do nothing or sleep, lol. Any games I play would have to be either free or pirated ones. My parents won't pay and I have too many mental disabilities to work, lol. Still don't get disability benefits despite everything for some stupid nonsense reason I don't remember, despite my many, many diagnoses from several psychiatrists. But yeah, either free or pirated games are my only option, lol. I wouldn't be opposed to us doing something, my only worry is how well it'd work out, lol.

And awww, thanks! You're also the coolest person I've talked to on here in a while! You seem friendly for sure, too! As for me being friendly despite being anti-social, this might be my bipolar at play. You might be seeing me at my positive end of my bipolar, where I'm wholesome and sweet and seem like the nicest person ever. As opposed to my negative end, where I'm basically the biggest jerk ever and am threatening and harassing people. Then there's the middle ground with anhedonia where I'm just sort of indifferent to everything. Lol. But yeah. My bipolar might explain that. You're probably catching me at one of my positive ends.

TL;DR You seem really nice too! My only worry is for how long our friendship would last, lol. Especially with bipolar and shit. Right now you're probably catching me on one of my positive ends of bipolar, but the negative ends can be quite scary. And then there's the anhedonic indifferent middle end. Lol. So yeah. Good to be aware of all that.

 

[katara]

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Ah yeah. It's quite lame when parents pretend their kids have mental disabilities just so they can get extra attention. Makes kids who ACTUALLY have mental disabilities look bad and not be taken as serious. And yeah, everyone totally ignores my issues, including my own parents. Even after many, many different diagnoses relating to mental health by professional psychiatrists they still believe I'm making all this up to this day just to have an excuse not to go to work or to go to school/university/college/whatever you wanna call it. And they believe that even as a little kid or toddler I was acting strange just for attention or to manipulate others. As for anti-social, it was actually a professional psychiatrist diagonsis. I wish it was just a self-diagnosis, but it's unfortunately official.

Ah, so Avatar and Spongebob! Funny you mention as those two were definitely pretty up there with my favorite shows. To be fair they're both from Nickelodeon, so not that much of a coincidence, but still awesome, haha. As a kid I hyperfixated on a whole bunch of different shows, not just those two, honestly.

As for if I wanted to talk anywhere else, I have an account on basically almost all major social media websites/apps. My usual main go-tos are Discord and Instagram just because I've been using them the longest and all of my "ex-friends" and "ex-acquaintances" were there, but to me it doesn't really matter too much either way as they're all the same garbage, lol. Beware though that I have a nasty habit of deleting all my accounts whenever I'm feeling like a misanthrope, lol. As we speak I actually had just deleted all my accounts like 2-3 weeks ago and recreated them all as a "blank slate" with nobody on my list because like if I wanna browse posts on places like Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook they require an account. I don't really use my phone number either as my parents don't pay the phone bill for my phone and I'm unable to get a job of my own either, so yeah, So as we speak I have basically nobody on those lists, and you would be the first, lol.

But yeah. Seeing people say the same things over and over can be boring. Though it seems to happen everywhere and anywhere for me, both online and in real life. Lol. And ah yeah. I do feel you on that front. Some people who would initially act like my best friends but then just ignore me. As for that guy, yeah, definitely sounds like one of those many type of people who just end up ignoring you, lol. I don't really do much most of the time either. Usually I'm sort of anhedonic. But at the same time I'm down for anything, a jack of all trades not too strongly against or for something, so to speak. Raccoons are cute, yeah. My area tends to have quite a few raccoons and possums here and there. My parents have three cats, but I wouldn't really call them my own as I don't interact with them most of the time, as I'm usually really low energy, but yes, they are cute, lol. Occasionally I'll play video games though I'm not super into them. With high anxiety and stuff even simple single player games can give me anxiety about winning or losing. And even for the more chill no win or lose type games my mind often goes blank and forgets the basic controls, even if very simple, lol. Probably something to do with schizophrenia and dissociation. But yeah. Usually I just do more low-key stuff like watching movies or TV shows, listening to music, etc. Though there are definitely many times I just do nothing or sleep, lol. Any games I play would have to be either free or pirated ones. My parents won't pay and I have too many mental disabilities to work, lol. Still don't get disability benefits despite everything for some stupid nonsense reason I don't remember, despite my many, many diagnoses from several psychiatrists. But yeah, either free or pirated games are my only option, lol. I wouldn't be opposed to us doing something, my only worry is how well it'd work out, lol.

And awww, thanks! You're also the coolest person I've talked to on here in a while! You seem friendly for sure, too! As for me being friendly despite being anti-social, this might be my bipolar at play. You might be seeing me at my positive end of my bipolar, where I'm wholesome and sweet and seem like the nicest person ever. As opposed to my negative end, where I'm basically the biggest jerk ever and am threatening and harassing people. Then there's the middle ground with anhedonia where I'm just sort of indifferent to everything. Lol. But yeah. My bipolar might explain that. You're probably catching me at one of my positive ends.

TL;DR You seem really nice too! My only worry is for how long our friendship would last, lol. Especially with bipolar and shit. Right now you're probably catching me on one of my positive ends of bipolar, but the negative ends can be quite scary. And then there's the anhedonic indifferent middle end. Lol. So yeah. Good to be aware of all that.

One time one of my teachers even noticed something going on with me but nothing ended up getting done, it was weird. Maybe i'll tell you the story sometime because i think back to it and it was a bit odd what happened. I have both discord and insta, i actually just started re-using instagram this year. That's ok you don't have a phone i just thought maybe that would be easier for fast messaging and sending photos or memes or whatever. I struggle with having low energy but i guess the weather change has been making me feel better recently. The game thing is fine, i only play free stuff too! When i was younger playstation and nintendo were my thing. I'll message you so we can share contacts and more personal stuff.

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

One time one of my teachers even noticed something going on with me but nothing ended up getting done, it was weird. Maybe i'll tell you the story sometime because i think back to it and it was a bit odd what happened. I have both discord and insta, i actually just started re-using instagram this year. That's ok you don't have a phone i just thought maybe that would be easier for fast messaging and sending photos or memes or whatever. I struggle with having low energy but i guess the weather change has been making me feel better recently. The game thing is fine, i only play free stuff too! When i was younger playstation and nintendo were my thing. I'll message you so we can share contacts and more personal stuff.

Ah yeah. Teachers don't do shit most of the time. Especially in regards to bullying where they'll often just sit back and watch. Sure, I'm sure the story would be interesting, lol. I myself have a bunch of random weird stories, both of stuff that have happened to me personally and stuff that I just saw on the news or on the internet or whatever. Cool that you have Discord and Insta, as those are my 2 main ones as well! And yeah, I've been without a phone since elementary school where everyone had one, lol. I never cared that much about phones personally but the other kids did make fun of me for not having one.

Don't know what the usual temperature is in your area, but I live in a usually hot area and it's getting much colder, which I prefer, lol. I do not do well in the heat because of sweating a lot and sunburns. And ah, good to see we're on the same page about game things, lol. Nintendo has usually been my go-to actually since their games are often relatively beginner friendly and have simple controls. I suck at more complex games, and complex stuff in general, lol. But yeah, sure! We can share contacts and more personal stuff, if you're fine with it! I saw you just messaged me too, so yeah, I'll respond to you on there too, lol.