Venting I got SN and Metoprolol delivered to my door for less than 27 bucks and I am being left home alone the whole weekend.

[trashalready]

If this is not a sign, I do not know what is.

My heart is pounding llike crazy, now I am not sure if I want to CTB tomorrow or just wait and see if life gets less shitty; been trying to off myself for years and now that it is in my hands, I am just overthinking a million different things. But yeah, this for real might be my last post here, if I do not do it tomorrow, will probably do it sometime within the next year (my SN expires September 2026). For all of those seaking peace, I wish you the best before and during the whole thing, the world is a fucked up place and it seems like this is the only actual decision we can take on our lifes (ironically).

To all my friends and family, I am not sure they will ever read this, but I am sorry. I will leave no other note behind, I think I will just let my life and the end of it be enough of a note; this one is for all the ghosts, I love you.

 

[R. A.]

Always such a mystery, users with years-old accounts and hardly any posts. I read your before this from earlier this year. I'm sorry those two years didn't turn things around but glad you seem to have had a spot of relief...if this was the last from you, I hope you find peace