Story i had a dream

[Life_and_Death]

i havent had a dream in a while but i just did. i was on here writing my goodbye thread but it didnt feel right.

lately ive had this feeling of wanting it to be over. its like inside i want to live, but on the surface i just want it to all be over, by an means necessary. the disorders, the trauma, the health issues. and lately, especially today, ive been scared this head pain is going to seal my fate and im basically going to have to commit whether i want to or not. i want to say i know im over exaggerating and that ill be fine but its head pain that ive had for 9 days now, im not going to lie to myself. idk...maybe i should just go straight to ER. im not going to assume its over until the doctor says so. maybe ill get off lucky and they'll have a medication or something and ill be fine. i think im dreaming though XD

 

[so tired or manic]

it sounds like the pain is causing a lot of stress and for that alone you probably should get it looked into. I get the anxiety and not wanting to go alone, but at the very least I'm usually by my phone and you're welcome to message me if it'll help make doctors easier.

 

[Life_and_Death]

it sounds like the pain is causing a lot of stress and for that alone you probably should get it looked into. I get the anxiety and not wanting to go alone, but at the very least I'm usually by my phone and you're welcome to message me if it'll help make doctors easier.

Its going to get checked out at some point in the next month, the question is just if it's going to be at ER or my family doctor. It's a complicated situation with a lot of variables lol.
Thanks for the offer it's really appreciated and I'll keep it in mind