Venting I hate being an ugly girl

[jellymomo]

I'm not even exaggerating i hate living as an ugly woman. It's so hard to cope knowing that looks are everything. All my life i've tried to be pretty but it failed. i try to look pretty, put on makeup but it just feels like putting lipstick on a pig. I'm so ugly not even the guys on streets look at me because i'm so averagely ugly. i hate my brown eyes and my puffy face. I will never be able to fully hide my ugliness so my only choice is to CTB. i want to experience the pretty privilege that attractive people have, i want to be considered special to people. i've accepted the fact that'll never happen and ill never experience love in my life. the only "love" i've had was a partner that lusted over me so i feel pathetic. i hate when people tell me that looks aren't everything in life when it truly is, especially as a woman.

i just want to get this ctb over with so i can be reincarnated into an attractive girl and live an easy life, maybe that'll heal me. is this a stupid reason to die? lol

 

[JhinLovesPyke]

To be honest, I feel the same way about myself most of the time. Even though people might tell me I'm beautiful, I do not believe them. Sometimes, wishing for the better mental health for me is all I care about, so I no longer worry about my looks. And neither should you. If person loves you for your looks only, that's not real love - that's just lust.

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I'm not even exaggerating i hate living as an ugly woman. It's so hard to cope knowing that looks are everything. All my life i've tried to be pretty but it failed. i try to look pretty, put on makeup but it just feels like putting lipstick on a pig. I'm so ugly not even the guys on streets look at me because i'm so averagely ugly. i hate my brown eyes and my puffy face. I will never be able to fully hide my ugliness so my only choice is to CTB. i want to experience the pretty privilege that attractive people have, i want to be considered special to people. i've accepted the fact that'll never happen and ill never experience love in my life. the only "love" i've had was a partner that lusted over me so i feel pathetic. i hate when people tell me that looks aren't everything in life when it truly is, especially as a woman.

i just want to get this ctb over with so i can be reincarnated into an attractive girl and live an easy life, maybe that'll heal me. is this a stupid reason to die? lol

I think it's a myth that more attractive people live easier lives. In many ways I think it's harder for them. Imagine living a life where your self worth is completely defined by your looks then having it stripped away by age, the great leveller.
I used to have similar hang ups about my weight. I have struggled with my weight all my life. Now, at 50, I see those people who were once slender things having to come to grips with losing that.

If you are indeed unattractive, at least time and nature cannot take it away and reveal it for the hollow void it is leaving you with nothing. You are learning now what most people end up having to face as they age.

 

[SVEN]

Trust me, being an ugly guy isn't much fun either.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I have the same issues and wasted a lot of time trying to improve my looks when it was never going to happen. It was a little bit freeing to just accept that I looked the way I did and there wasn't anything I could do about it. I'm well out of school, but I started studying more and doing more things to improve my mind (I figure that will give me a head-start when I am finally reincarnated I also don't worry about dieting anymore.
I definitely wish things about my looks/body were different, but I've also noticed that pretty girls aren't treated well, either. A lot of predatory characters come their way. I've realized the happiest people are the ones who are comfortable in their own skin, and I've met people who are even thought they're not good looking. It's not something I've been able to achieve, but I hold out hope :).

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Arent there ways to achieve more beauty? From the inside, by deciding I have a certain beauty of myself, no matter what the others say. Or from the outside, by sports, plastic surgery and diet.

 

[lawlietsph]

I can understand you completely. My biggest issue is my weight, I am overweight - not too much, but it's enough to have a double chin and a fat belly. And it's not something I can just change due to hormonal problems. I don't have the money to go to the doctor. Even if I eat nothing but pure salad for weeks, nothing happens, I stay this fat - tried it multiple times.
The same hormonal issue is causing me to have a bunch of hair on my face, I am disgusted with myself. I have a huge bald spot on my head also, my hair is falling like there's no tomorrow. My teeth is fucked up, when I needed braces as a child, my parents simply didn't care. They neglected me in so many ways. I have glasses, my vision is so bad I can't see shit without them. Again, I don't have the money for contact lenses or at least a new pair of glasses - The one that I have is almost 10 years old.
My clothes are worn out, old, awful.
Last year I was trying to make myself prettier, bought some face serums and sunscreen and what not, but no matter what I put on my face, when I look in the mirror I still have to throw up.

No man in the right mind would ever want me and I truly can't blame them. I am the most disgusting creature on this planet.
I am sorry OP for talking about myself, but I just wanted to let you know that I feel your pain. I wish things would be different.

 

[GlassMoon]

I think it's a myth that more attractive people live easier lives. In many ways I think it's harder for them. Imagine living a life where your self worth is completely defined by your looks then having it stripped away by age, the great leveller.

I believe that prettier, not necessarily attractive people, do have a somewhat easier life, at least in terms of establishing connections with others. Chances that someone will try to get to know you and find your inner beauty are higher in my opinion, at the very least when there are several people they have to choose from.

 

[makebelieve]

I think it's a myth that more attractive people live easier lives. In many ways I think it's harder for them. Imagine living a life where your self worth is completely defined by your looks then having it stripped away by age, the great leveller.
I used to have similar hang ups about my weight. I have struggled with my weight all my life. Now, at 50, I see those people who were once slender things having to come to grips with losing that.

If you are indeed unattractive, at least time and nature cannot take it away and reveal it for the hollow void it is leaving you with nothing. You are learning now what most people end up having to face as they age.

Lol what is this cope.

 

[deadzombie6]

I feel you it's my biggest reason to CTB too I'm so damn ugly even the ugliest man wouldn't date me Ive stopped looking in the mirror and the camera i don't take pictures I don't even wanna see my own reflection i hate myself so much I compare myself to every girl I see every single second of the day . I understand you OP it's really extremely tough being an ugly woman ):

 

[divinemistress36]

Im loosing my looks but I had them when I was younger. Men only saw me as a sex object they didnt actually like me so I was never able to get into relationships since I was just seen as a piece of meat.

 

[over2025]

Im loosing my looks but I had them when I was younger. Men only saw me as a sex object they didnt actually like me so I was never able to get into relationships since I was just seen as a piece of meat.

I'm a man, and I think men look at women like that regardless of beauty to be honest. When you're attractive, you're just more likely to actually experience it.

Lol what is this cope.

"Just wait until you're 50!" Yeah, basically be miserable my whole life until the playing field is level. Btw, at that age, barely anyone is dating, so how am I going to have a dating life then?

 

[jellymomo]

I can understand you completely. My biggest issue is my weight, I am overweight - not too much, but it's enough to have a double chin and a fat belly. And it's not something I can just change due to hormonal problems. I don't have the money to go to the doctor. Even if I eat nothing but pure salad for weeks, nothing happens, I stay this fat - tried it multiple times.
The same hormonal issue is causing me to have a bunch of hair on my face, I am disgusted with myself. I have a huge bald spot on my head also, my hair is falling like there's no tomorrow. My teeth is fucked up, when I needed braces as a child, my parents simply didn't care. They neglected me in so many ways. I have glasses, my vision is so bad I can't see shit without them. Again, I don't have the money for contact lenses or at least a new pair of glasses - The one that I have is almost 10 years old.
My clothes are worn out, old, awful.
Last year I was trying to make myself prettier, bought some face serums and sunscreen and what not, but no matter what I put on my face, when I look in the mirror I still have to throw up.

No man in the right mind would ever want me and I truly can't blame them. I am the most disgusting creature on this planet.
I am sorry OP for talking about myself, but I just wanted to let you know that I feel your pain. I wish things would be different.

No don't apologize that's completely fine
I relate to this so much and i'm sorry for your struggles, i really hope it gets better for you.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I think it's a myth that more attractive people live easier lives. In many ways I think it's harder for them. Imagine living a life where your self worth is completely defined by your looks then having it stripped away by age, the great leveller.

I mean, how people treat you is usually in some way defined by your looks, whether you are pretty or not. Let's face it, they have it easier. People generally tend to attribute positive traits to those who they perceive as being physically attractive. People who are attractive tend to benefit from others being biased in their favour. Even going by the logic of their looks being stripped away with age, the same still applies to those who don't meet conventional beauty standards and who may fear being in an even worse position than before as they get older.

It's not like aging even creates an equal playing field. Some people age better than others. Some people still look incredibly young despite being in their 50s And older. My dad is in his early 50s and he still looks closer to someone around my age (he's actually been mistaken for my older brother before). He's also considered to be an attractive-looking dude. It's not like he even has a healthy lifestyle. He smokes weed on a regular basis, is starting to develop a drinking problem, and barely eats. My grandmother is in her 80s and she has been complimented for how well she has aged and how young she looks. Some people age better than others and that can lead to them being treated preferentially compared to others apart of their age demographic. Looks aren't always stripped from you, at least not completely. Some people luck out and are able to age gracefully due to good genetics and lifestyle choices.

The advantages that come with being conventionally attractive can, at the very least, potentially aid a bit in setting up a good life path if you play your cards right. For example, being more attractive might set the stage for creating more connections and having better job opportunities.

 

[maniac116]

The true beauty of a person comes from the inside!! I have dated beautiful people who were truly ugly due to their thoughts & actions.
My long term relationships were with people who weren't beautiful on the outside but radiated beauty from the inside.
How a person looks is superficial. How we act & feel has depth

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

I think that most of people aren't ugly and that is almost impossible to be unless you had a serious malformation or an accident. nature generates harmonious forms spontaneously, so everyone has different looking but the shapes and colors bring by nature are brought by the same laws and intrinsic codes that create order and harmony.

 

[libitina]

i'm an ugly girl too. life sucks when you're ugly. it isn't even worth living if you're ugly, especially as a woman.

i'm so envious of those pretty, blonde, blue-eyed girls. i'd eat shit if it meant i could become one of them.

 

[pointblank]

People just wanna be an aesthetic and it sucks if you can't because of the genes you drew. Life is not fair that way, yeah.

 

[foreverlanguish]

I get what you mean. Because I'm really skinny too, it's just as bad for me. I look and feel very undesirable, and my personality isn't too great either. When I was 12-13, I used high exposure filters in my photos to hide a lot of the features in my face because I absolutely hated how I looked like. Being ugly is really no walk in the park…

 

[Thisisnotaname]

I come after the war but you know, feeling ugly doesn't mean being ugly. Of course it may be that physically you do not like say 50% of the people but the 50% is in nothing representative. Far from it and at worst it keeps away from you the superficial people. I don't know you and certainly I regret it, but from your answers I already know that you are beautiful.