Venting I hate my ED (tw numbers)

[restingplace]

I honestly miss the days where I was borderline 38kgs, I felt so much better physically and mentally, I felt light and I felt comfortable in my body. I've been stuck at 42-44kgs for a while now and it's hell, it's dropped recently so I can keep going more but it's such agony.
I feel so invalid because I'm not super thin and don't always eat diet stuff although I try, I do high res instead but its hard. i just want to be sectioned to escape exams and life itself all while feeling validated

 

[smileycryptid]

Feeling uncomfortable in your body is the worst because you can't really escape it so it's constantly on your mind it's hell

i don't think I have ever met an ed person who thought they were thin enough to feel vaild but your always vaild I think that's part of having an ed although I know its alot easier to say than believe

I don't think it helps that's Ed's aren't very well understood by the public including doctors
you feel like you to prove yourself which is just as dangerous at any weight to be taken seriously but that's never the Eds persons fault it's entirely the fault of the medical system and the public not really understanding Eds

anyway that being said I believe you your ed is very vaild and I wish you well with whatever you choose to do weather it's exams or hospital

I honestly miss the days where I was borderline 38kgs, I felt so much better physically and mentally, I felt light and I felt comfortable in my body. I've been stuck at 42-44kgs for a while now and it's hell, it's dropped recently so I can keep going more but it's such agony.
I feel so invalid because I'm not super thin and don't always eat diet stuff although I try, I do high res instead but its hard. i just want to be sectioned to escape exams and life itself all while feeling validated

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I honestly miss the days where I was borderline 38kgs, I felt so much better physically and mentally, I felt light and I felt comfortable in my body. I've been stuck at 42-44kgs for a while now and it's hell, it's dropped recently so I can keep going more but it's such agony.
I feel so invalid because I'm not super thin and don't always eat diet stuff although I try, I do high res instead but its hard. i just want to be sectioned to escape exams and life itself all while feeling validated

EDs are nothing but a never-ending game of "moving the goalposts"...there's never a point where you feel validated enough, there's always something new. If not your weight then your step count, if not that then your resting heartrate, if not that then your measurements, etc. etc. it's pointless even trying.

I used to have a love/hate relationship with my ED, but now amidst my umpteenth relapse, I can only refer to it in my head as my stupid eating disorder, because there is no better word to describe this exercise in futility.

But if it helps, you clearly are ED'd, no doubt about it. And as an aside, loads of very sick ED'd people do high res, it doesn't really mean anything, especially because of how subjective the concept of high/low res is.

 

[hot]

I honestly miss the days where I was borderline 38kgs, I felt so much better physically and mentally, I felt light and I felt comfortable in my body. I've been stuck at 42-44kgs for a while now and it's hell, it's dropped recently so I can keep going more but it's such agony.
I feel so invalid because I'm not super thin and don't always eat diet stuff although I try, I do high res instead but its hard. i just want to be sectioned to escape exams and life itself all while feeling validated

Hey, can I ask how tall you are ?

 

[restingplace]

Hey, can I ask how tall you are ?

Last time I checked I was 161cm (I haven't grown for a solid while and I'm losing hope hah)

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

Hey, can I ask how tall you are ?

That's completely irrelevant to the matter at hand. If you have limited knowledge about eating disorders, please don't comment.