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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
I need to hurt, I'm desperate. Going to keep taking a few every half an hour or so and just hope that if nothing I get a high. Just need to hurt this body.
 
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Donewith_

Elementalist
Sep 28, 2018
876
Sorry to see you are in such a situation. Try to refrain from doing it if you can convince yourself.
I take a few pills sometimes.. idk why I just feel like it. It messes me up.
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
I need to hurt, I'm desperate. Going to keep taking a few every half an hour or so and just hope that if nothing I get a high. Just need to hurt this body.
I wouldn't
I'd slap a rubber band against my wrist.
Or even create a small cut and pour a bit of rubbing alcohol into it
None of these 2 will leave any lasting damage either
You said you needed to hurt so I'd do those
 
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Sickman75

Sickman75

Swing On The Spiral
Jan 27, 2019
572
I need to hurt, I'm desperate. Going to keep taking a few every half an hour or so and just hope that if nothing I get a high. Just need to hurt this body.
Which OTC did you choose? The last one I took was Benadryl took about 30 of them. Got high as fuck. I liked it. That's how I hurt my body. Hurt it but got high out of it
 
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Othermind

Othermind

Specialist
Dec 26, 2018
301
Or even create a small cut and pour a bit of rubbing alcohol into it
I'm NOT endorsing self-harm, but this is actually better than what you're doing, OP, as in it releases endorphins and should help you calm down.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
Which OTC did you choose? The last one I took was Benadryl took about 30 of them. Got high as fuck. I liked it. That's how I hurt my body. Hurt it but got high out of it

I only had paracetamol. It probably did fuck all.
 
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DepressionsAHo

DepressionsAHo

Heaven gained a new ho
Feb 15, 2019
831
I'm NOT endorsing self-harm, but this is actually better than what you're doing, OP, as in it releases endorphins and should help you calm down.
Exactly
I hate the fact that I do it but self harm isi better than liver damage
 
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TheCrow

TheCrow

Invisible Spirit
Sep 26, 2018
802
Which OTC did you choose? The last one I took was Benadryl took about 30 of them. Got high as fuck. I liked it. That's how I hurt my body. Hurt it but got high out of it
What did that feel like?
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
@BaconCheeseburger how are you doing now?
 
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Xerox

Member
Jan 3, 2019
55
@BaconCheeseburger I hope you're feeling better. Acetaminophen is just going to feck up your liver. Do you have benzos? They can be mellowing. Smoke some weed.
 
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JustLosingMyself

Mage
Sep 4, 2018
544
I only had paracetamol. It probably did fuck all.
How many did you take?
Paracetamol will not make you high but will cause liver damage or even liver failure. Both are very painful and horrid protracted ways to go.
It can be counteracted in hospital if done so within a few hours.
 
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Autumn Winter

Autumn Winter

Member
Oct 28, 2018
29
Alcohol is a good way to get a nice feeling albeit not high though.
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
Had to leave work early as I cried for 20 mins out of my hour's lunch break. Been an empty shell of a mess for the rest of the day

Oh jeez. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time :-( I know you are on a fair amount of medication for various things, do you take any sleeping medication or have anything for this evening?

Just wanting you to try and get some decent sleep, do you take Anti-histimines at all? I find they make me drowsy for sleep
 
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chrijo

chrijo

done
Feb 8, 2019
329
How many did you take?
Paracetamol will not make you high but will cause liver damage or even liver failure. Both are very painful and horrid protracted ways to go.
It can be counteracted in hospital if done so within a few hours.

Thats right. Please dont use paracetamol, ibuprofen or aspirin for ctb.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
Oh jeez. I'm sorry you are having such a rough time :-( I know you are on a fair amount of medication for various things, do you take any sleeping medication or have anything for this evening?

Just wanting you to try and get some decent sleep, do you take Anti-histimines at all? I find they make me drowsy for sleep

I've been taking Pregabalin to zone me out enough to sleep, there's things like Zopiclone I can ask for from my GP but they only do a week's prescription because it's addictive.

I've got an appointment with a mental health doctor on Friday. Think I'll go back on antidepressants very soon.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
How many did you take?
Paracetamol will not make you high but will cause liver damage or even liver failure. Both are very painful and horrid protracted ways to go.
It can be counteracted in hospital if done so within a few hours.

Only about like... 6 in the morning spread out across 4-5 hours. I've taken a lot more in the past, this was just me crying out for attention tbh. Not that I told anyone I did it..
 
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JustAboutDone

Illuminated
Jan 1, 2019
3,532
I've been taking Pregabalin to zone me out enough to sleep, there's things like Zopiclone I can ask for from my GP but they only do a week's prescription because it's addictive.

I've got an appointment with a mental health doctor on Friday. Think I'll go back on antidepressants very soon.

I'm glad you've got the appointment on Friday, don't feel bad about going back on the antidepressants - it's work stress that's doing this there is no failing on your part.
 
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JustLosingMyself

Mage
Sep 4, 2018
544
Only about like... 6 in the morning spread out across 4-5 hours. I've taken a lot more in the past, this was just me crying out for attention tbh. Not that I told anyone I did it..
Thank you for letting me know.
Please be careful with what you do.
I've never met you, I won't stop you, but I care
 
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brighter

Warlock
Jan 22, 2019
718
How many did you take?
Paracetamol will not make you high but will cause liver damage or even liver failure. Both are very painful and horrid protracted ways to go.
It can be counteracted in hospital if done so within a few hours.
I'm speaking from experience and I would strongly urge you not to use painkillers. It fucks you up very badly.
Please don't put yourself through that pain find a better way x
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

Comfort-eating
Aug 4, 2018
693
Ended up self harming. Only one cut though, saving space for later (and trying to freak my partner out less.. One cut is better than five?)
 

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