Kimlett
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- Jan 7, 2024
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This is just a rant. Feel free to ignore it. I will talk shit about therapy, meditation and meds, so don't read if you think you can feel offended. Please just don't try to change my opinion. This is just something I need to get off my chest.
Therapy is just plain stupid or at least it's not worth the price. Everybody says "go to therapy" and then they think to themselves "my job is done here". Fucking thanks. Sane normies think therapy is the holy grail, a mysterious ritual that solves all mental issues. My vast experience says otherwise. I mean. my friends can listen to my shit and give me advice or just validate me, for free. I've had like 8 therapists in the last 10 years. I find videos in youtube that help me much more than any therapist just by saying some stuff that makes me feel validated, and I wonder why my therapist doesn't say to me stuff like that, nothing that makes me feel better, just the empty words I've heard over and over. Some of them recommend trying meditation... Ok I tried, is that all you will say to me? I mean, people tell you to go to therapy, therapist tells you to meditate... Ok, I could have figured that out for free. And then meditation doesn't work for you and then what? No more tools? You can't help anymore if those simple tecniques that can work with normal people dealing with some stress and whatnot just doesn't work with a fucked-up mind like mine? Two of my therapists, at certain point, just told me they don't know how to help me. I mean, I appreciate the honesty, but man, I have major depression, you can't treat that? Isn't what you're supposed to know how to treat? What will you do whith people with schizofrenia, severe ocd or bpd or whatever? Do this therapists only know how to treat sane people with some stress or with small mundane issues?? What do you mean you can't treat my depression? That's like my dentist telling me they can't treat my cavities. Aren't you supposed to do that for a living? And don't get me started in the amount of money I've lost to this. At least 50 euros per session, 200 per month. I think in te US it is even more expensive, but still. I have a shitty office low wage job (which by the way is a big part of why I'm mentally fucked-up but this world does not give any alternatives), and I have to spend the money I could save in something that is not fucking helping me, while I make someone richer? Fuck off.
Meditation is not the fucking holy grail either!! Stop with that!! The fact that it works for you doesn't mean it works for everybody!! Again, it is portrayed as miraculous, and it's just closing your eyes and staring at your stupid thoughts while you resist the urges to fucking move or scratch your hair or your nose or whatever. So fucking annoying and irritating. How is that supposed to help me? To train my ability to focus? That just does not heal my wounds. I mean, I'm starting to think my wounds will never heal, if just any fucking therapist can help me with that, I've felt desperate to the point I've tried esoteric stuff and even trying to believe in god and christianity and all that made-up bullshit that deeply infuriates me. But that's a different topic.
Meds are the only thing that have helped me somehow. But still, I've tried more than 8 different meds. If the purpose of the meds were to give you headaches, lack of sleep and lack of orgasms, congrats, you nailed it. But to fight depression they're kind of pathetic. Now I'm in an abnormally high dose of sertraline and it helps even though I still wanna kill myself every week, and I'll start a ketamine treatment whenever my hospital fucking finally contacts me. I'm ok with that, the more drugs I can take to escape this shitty life, the better.
I just think there's not something that works for everybody. Journaling helps me, creative stuff helps me, videogames help me, and I don't patronize people selling those things like water in the desert. Still, I have things that help me, but nothing is a real consistent solution or good enough alleviation of my mental problems. Fuck, therapy has helped me sometimes, but not fucking enough, not at all for fucking 50 or 60 euros per session. Stop fucking preaching it, fuck! I just go through life the best I can, like a fucking broken smokey old car driving extremely slowly at the side of the road, trying to not disturb the thousands of fast cool cars that pass me at full speed. I still haven't found a treatment as effective as being fucking dead. I aim to continue doing my best although my best is much below the fucking societal standards. Fuck therapy, fuck meditation, fuck meds, fuck the world, fuck being fucking alive.
Therapy is just plain stupid or at least it's not worth the price. Everybody says "go to therapy" and then they think to themselves "my job is done here". Fucking thanks. Sane normies think therapy is the holy grail, a mysterious ritual that solves all mental issues. My vast experience says otherwise. I mean. my friends can listen to my shit and give me advice or just validate me, for free. I've had like 8 therapists in the last 10 years. I find videos in youtube that help me much more than any therapist just by saying some stuff that makes me feel validated, and I wonder why my therapist doesn't say to me stuff like that, nothing that makes me feel better, just the empty words I've heard over and over. Some of them recommend trying meditation... Ok I tried, is that all you will say to me? I mean, people tell you to go to therapy, therapist tells you to meditate... Ok, I could have figured that out for free. And then meditation doesn't work for you and then what? No more tools? You can't help anymore if those simple tecniques that can work with normal people dealing with some stress and whatnot just doesn't work with a fucked-up mind like mine? Two of my therapists, at certain point, just told me they don't know how to help me. I mean, I appreciate the honesty, but man, I have major depression, you can't treat that? Isn't what you're supposed to know how to treat? What will you do whith people with schizofrenia, severe ocd or bpd or whatever? Do this therapists only know how to treat sane people with some stress or with small mundane issues?? What do you mean you can't treat my depression? That's like my dentist telling me they can't treat my cavities. Aren't you supposed to do that for a living? And don't get me started in the amount of money I've lost to this. At least 50 euros per session, 200 per month. I think in te US it is even more expensive, but still. I have a shitty office low wage job (which by the way is a big part of why I'm mentally fucked-up but this world does not give any alternatives), and I have to spend the money I could save in something that is not fucking helping me, while I make someone richer? Fuck off.
Meditation is not the fucking holy grail either!! Stop with that!! The fact that it works for you doesn't mean it works for everybody!! Again, it is portrayed as miraculous, and it's just closing your eyes and staring at your stupid thoughts while you resist the urges to fucking move or scratch your hair or your nose or whatever. So fucking annoying and irritating. How is that supposed to help me? To train my ability to focus? That just does not heal my wounds. I mean, I'm starting to think my wounds will never heal, if just any fucking therapist can help me with that, I've felt desperate to the point I've tried esoteric stuff and even trying to believe in god and christianity and all that made-up bullshit that deeply infuriates me. But that's a different topic.
Meds are the only thing that have helped me somehow. But still, I've tried more than 8 different meds. If the purpose of the meds were to give you headaches, lack of sleep and lack of orgasms, congrats, you nailed it. But to fight depression they're kind of pathetic. Now I'm in an abnormally high dose of sertraline and it helps even though I still wanna kill myself every week, and I'll start a ketamine treatment whenever my hospital fucking finally contacts me. I'm ok with that, the more drugs I can take to escape this shitty life, the better.
I just think there's not something that works for everybody. Journaling helps me, creative stuff helps me, videogames help me, and I don't patronize people selling those things like water in the desert. Still, I have things that help me, but nothing is a real consistent solution or good enough alleviation of my mental problems. Fuck, therapy has helped me sometimes, but not fucking enough, not at all for fucking 50 or 60 euros per session. Stop fucking preaching it, fuck! I just go through life the best I can, like a fucking broken smokey old car driving extremely slowly at the side of the road, trying to not disturb the thousands of fast cool cars that pass me at full speed. I still haven't found a treatment as effective as being fucking dead. I aim to continue doing my best although my best is much below the fucking societal standards. Fuck therapy, fuck meditation, fuck meds, fuck the world, fuck being fucking alive.
