shadow_nova
Tired of everything
- Sep 27, 2024
- 24
And that includes my parents too it's so goddamn horrible seeing all these people so content and happy with life . Today I saw the guy who Sa'd me for years in my childhood and guess what ? He looked genuinely happy and hes been living such a good life and here I am completely ruined with no hope for my future . The worst part is even when I CTB people including my parents are just gonna play the victim and never accept their mistake they're gonna live happily after blaming and making fun of my death and knowing them they'd even be so happy that I'm dead . I don't believe in god if there's an all merciful and loving God out there why dint he save me ? Why the fuck am I treated like a piece of shit by the same people who are supposed to be family it hurts it really hurts even thinking about how they're gonna blame me for my death and never realise their mistakes and just go on with their lives happily . I want all the people who ruined me and my life to suffer , I want them to feel guilty and realise how horrible they are i want my family to fall apart I want their bubble of narcissism to pop . Years and years of living in this hell of a house I can't do anything anymore I'm barely a human I can't function normally im ruined beyond words I don't understand why did I spend my whole life being beaten around , abused , cursed at , abandoned , outcasted and Sa'd . Life isn't fair they shouldn't be happy after ruining my life and taking away my childhood ):