I have gotten my first ever sh/ self in jury related comp ulsion, should I be wo rried?

[Silent_cries]

A few hour s ago I got my first ever sh/self in jury related compu lsion. Basicly I have to ba ng my head toward s conc rete to relive myself from certain other very exh austing ritual s and intru sive thought s and to make x person su ffer le ss. The har der I ba ng, the longer this "effect" las t. Am I at ri sk of dev eloping more of these? How do I prevent that? I do no t want to en d up on sui cide watch bc of this :/

 

[Life_and_Death]

to make x person su ffer le ss.

im a little concerned about whos suffering less from you hurting more.
also as someone that probably counts as a chronic head hitter, stop. concussions arent worth it

 

[Silent_cries]

im a little concerned about whos suffering less from you hurting more.
also as someone that probably counts as a chronic head hitter, stop. concussions arent worth it

I wish, but once a comp ulsion start s it is near imp ossible to st op. :/